deeply superficial

soHAPPY together.

2006-04-13T07:14:00.000-07:00

imagine me and you
i do
i've been thinking 'bout you day and night
it's only right
to think about the [GUY] you love and hold [HIM] tight
so happy together

if i should clal y0u up
and waste a dime
and you say you belong to me and
ease my mind
imagine how the world could be
so very fine
so happy together

i can't see me loving nobody but you
for all my life
when you're with me baby the skies will be blue
for all my life

me and you
and you and me
no matter how they toss the dice
it's meant to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together

i can't see me loving nobody but you
for all my life
when you're with me, baby the skies will be blue
for all my life

me and you
and you andme
no matter how they toss the dice
it has to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together

ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba
ba ba ba baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

me and you
and you andme
no matter how they toss the dice
it has to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together
so happy together
and how is the weather?
so happy together
we're happy together
so happy together
so happy together
so happy together
so happy together
(ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba)

one.united

2006-04-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

hello hello, WASSUPPPPP. ah okay nvm. i was just amusing myself.

so today is...maundy thursday. and i had to sit in freeezing church for an hour and a half, but it was a willing sacrifice anyway...cos' i don't think i really sacrificed anything for lent or whatev, so yeah. anyway! today was 'sports day'. note the inverted commas. it was...okay lah. nothing much. i didn't do my 8x50, i gave it to vivienne. and 3.4 only won 2nd for cheerleading anyway. so it's okay. 3.6 is obviously the most united/successful class. ha. no surprise there, half of them came from 2.4'o5 =) so yes. tmr is good friday. and guess what? man u is playing sunderland (i think). tmr. good friday. like whoa. haha.

roooooooooooney, rooney!

THERE'S ONLY ONE RONALDO =)

manchester LA LA LA! manchester LA LA LA!

[psycho]

this is slantboy.

2006-04-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

everyone, meet slantboy. or at least the bottom half of him. desmond from electrico. rocks =)

bytheway, anyone know when's the new cd coming out? i want you!

TheDanceofLoversinaTwistedWorld

2006-04-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

people. hello. mua. ha. ha. okay. danielle, gen and me are officially in catholeague for service attachment. oh damn.

meee! in sports. oh well. won't die lah. i mean i survived NAPFA okay. and i love soccer/man u/world cup/SOCCER! anyway, so yeah.

i have a theory! about why lesbians/gays are weirdos. haha. okay, it's the way they ACT. lesbians are trying to imitate a girl-guy relationship by one being a butch/bung/whatever new name they have nowadays and gays! they just wanna make movies like brokeback and call it 'art'. like that skinny chinese gay fella in s'pores 'art' industry. hur hur, art industry. right.

so that's my theory. yep.

and i'm in loooove with ronin's guitarist, baby! and the electrico's bassist too! and ronaldo! nooo rooney and ronaldo are just my soccer guys. muahaha. i know crystal chew qian wen is laughing at my stupidity if she reads this. idiot!

life is complicated

take me for granted;

it's okay

i'll forgive you

life goes one

take you for granted;

it's not okay

you shout and scream and throw a tantrum

not knowing what the hell you're saying

well fine, be that way

just take everything like it's the end of the world

we don't speak for a few days

and you just come back like a woman scorned

oh my F*CK,

don't bring me into your shit life!

i don't need your nonsense

your immature talk of 'love' and it's 'pains'

my life is conplicated enough without you

so thanks for your love!

but i'll be going on my way now

with friends who i love and love me back

p.s. you aren't one of them.

okay guess away. three hints i'llgivre as to who it's directed to...

hint one: it's not someone older than meeee

hint two: i get pissed off with the person a lot

hint three: there is no hint three. hur hur. sorry if i got your hopes up.

mei yi ci kiss you goodbyeeeee

2006-04-05T06:01:00.000-07:00

hey hey people! the zhiyang-duet song is stuck in my head. pretty much been like that the whoooole day. oh well.

i'm damn tired lah.yst was napfa. sucky! but oh well, i passed everything. haha. so yeah. even 2.4 okay. and THAT is an achievement in itself. haha. so now, back to a math, social studies and chinese songs. ew. bye!

"Kiss Goodbye"

ZhiYang for CampusSuperStar

Baby bu yao zai ku qi,

zhe yi mu duo yao shou xi

jin wo zhao ni de shou bi ci,

dou she bu de fen li

mei yi ci xiang kai kou dan bu ru bao chi an jing

gei wo yi fen zhong zhuan xin,

hao hao xin shang ni de mei

xing fu da pei bei shang,

tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha

cuo zhe de yan lei bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang

fu chu de ai shou bu hui,

hai qian ni de wo bu neng gei

bie ba wo xin ye dai zou,

qu gen sui

mei yi ci he ni fen kai,

shen shen de bei ni da bai

mei yi ci fang qi ni de wen rou,

tong ku nan yi shi huai

mei yi ci he ni fen kai,

mei yi ci kiss you Goodbye

ai qing de zi wei ci ke wo zhong yu zui ming bai

[2 times]

"Lian Ai De Ren"

ZhiYang&XinHuey(?) for CSS

he: hey you jiu shi ni qing kao jin wo huai li

bie jia zhuang bu zai yi

ni ming ming dong le xin

So baby jiu shi ni

qing bu yao zai you yu

wo men wan ge you xi

jiao l.o.v.e

her: gei ni yi fen zhong

ruo hai bu xin dong

ni jiu shi mei chong

zhuang zai ku ye zhi dao mei yong

he: baby ni bu hui dong

wo jiu shi yao ni xin ji

wo lian ai mo di ke shi ta deng de hen ji

come on

together: hey you jiu shi ni

qing kao jin wo huai li

bie jia zhuang bu zai yi

ni ming ming dong le xin

So baby jiu shi ni

qing bu yao zai you yu

wo men wan ge you xi

jiao l.o.v.e

yeah

yes i do

he: yan shen bu neng zai hu

tai duo ruo you shi mo

ni zi ran jiu hui gen wo zou qing chang lu

her: ni dao di xing bu xing

jing wan wu liao de zhao shuo

wo kan guo de zhu ke shi da ren de cheng du

come on

together: hey you jiu shi ni

qing kao jin wo huai li

bie jia zhuang bu zai yi

wo ke neng xi huan ni

So baby jiu shi ni

qing shuo ni hen kai xin

wo you dian xi huan ni

you dian xi huan ni

he: ai shi ge ya guan ji ta rang wo de shen bian cheng wei da ren lian ai de ji qi shui yu jian ni lian da ren ye hui ren shu

Ya wei shen me shi ni

wo zhi xiang ha

her: so cute, come, come!

zhu tou cai hui yi zhi wan you xi shua xin ji

together: baby jiu shi ni qing kao jin wo huai li

bie jia zhuang bu zai yi

wo xiang wo xi huan ni

So baby jiu shi ni

qing shuo ni ye yuan yi

wo yi zhi xi huan ni

yi zhi xi huan ni~

baby jiu shi ni

qing kao jin wo huai li

bie jia zhuang bu zai yi

wo xiang wo xi huan ni

So baby jiu shi ni

qing shuo ni ye yuan yi

wo fei chang xi huan ni

fei chang xi huan ni

he: fei chang xi huan ni

2006-04-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

okay so if the video does come out, it's zhiyang singing the really cute song with erm. sin huey? i dunno hahahahahhaaha.

so anyway. campus superstar the competition is OVER MAN SO COOLLLL. yeah. and teresa won the female thingy! n zhiyang won the top top one. yeah. so hey, congrats to teresa and zhiyang both, they did their best, as well as geraldine and renfred, cos it takes balls to go on that stage man. it's freaking cold. oh well.

okay. so. i'm gonna go now...haha.

memories (=

2006-04-01T05:06:00.000-08:00

hey hey. okay. guess if you're reading this then you'd already know my password. =) it isn't to keep people out lah. it's just. okay. to keep a few people out. have to keep mum about it. get it. get it. okay. nvm.

anyway! today we FREEZED OUR ASSES off in really weirdly-styled shirts and miniskirts and with funky hair and make-up. so where and who are we? the 19 choir girls singing for teresa tmr =) it's turning ou to be real good fun. i mean there's the lights and the stage and all but hey! it's fun. yes yes. sooo yes. watch us tmr! vote for teresa! hehehe. i swear she'll sound great. really. and look pretty. really. ahha.

ahh okay match starting sooooon, BYEBYEEEE =)

and NO PEOPLE. MY BROTHER. IS NOT. MIGRATING. TO AUSTRALIA. and happy april fools.

materialistic sluts of the world

2006-03-29T05:19:00.000-08:00

hey. let's all not be materialistic sluts of the world. haha. and i need to change the background pic of my blogskin! i need photoshop! eh! photoshop people! GET ME PHOTOSHOP. okay. anyway.

gotta goooo, lots to do.

don't treat us like shit. which you are, by the way.

2006-03-28T05:37:00.000-08:00

One day, we all decided that since it was a special day coming up, we’d do something special for you. And now we just know that all our efforts are just wasted. You don’t appreciate what we’ve done, and think that we did it just because we felt we had to. Well you’re wrong, my dear friend. i wish you could stop being so blinded to us, who you USED to call your friends, and see that we aren’t doing anything to distance ourselves away from you at all. Sorry but I need to tell you because I know no one will, you’re the one pushing us away, not being our friends. We’ve tried our best to make it up to you and what do we get? A ‘thanks a lot’ and nothing else? No effort at all on your part and you blame it all on us? Well maybe this is how life is then. Friends like you just come and go as you please, and leave us hanging in mid-air. Ask yourself, you’ve been telling people how badly we’re treating you, but do you know how badly you’ve treated us in the first place?

just to let you know. a heads up on OUR lives instead of your perspective all the time.

don and drew-

2006-03-26T06:14:00.000-08:00

Be My Valentine

GIRL YOU DON'T ME BUT I SURE KNOW YOU
FROM YOUR LONG BLACK HAIR TO THE SIZE OF YOUR SHOES
IVE MET YOUR BROTHER AND IVE SPOKEN TO SOME OF YOUR FRIENDS
BUT DARLING, DARLING, THAT'S WHERE IT ENDS..

COZ BABY ALL I WANT TO DO IS TALK TO YOU
TO BUY YOU A DRINK MAYBE BUY YOU SOME FOOD
BUT I'M A GEEK AND I'M NERVOUS HALF OF THE TIME...
SO WOULD YOU BE WOULD YOU BE MY........

BE MY VALENTINE
WE'LL GO OUT ABOUT TOWN TO DINE
BE MY VALENTINE
I'LL GET YOU DRUNK ON CHEAP RED WINE
BE MY VALENTINE
THAT'S WHEN I'LL TOUCH YOUR BEHIND
IF YOU'D BE MY VALENTINE
THAT WOULD BE SO FINE

I'LL PRETEND TO LIKE THE RESTAURANTS YOU PICK
I WILL EVEN SIT THROUGH YET ANOTHER CHICK FLICK
AND IF WE ARGUE I'LL LET YOU WIN THE FIGHT
JUST AS LONG AS I GET TO HAVE SEX THAT NIGHT

BUT ALL YOU EVER WANT TO DO IS SIT AND TALK
AND GO FOR ONE OF THOSE DAMN LONG WALKS
I JUST WANNA SEE YOU NAKED IS THAT A CRIME?
SO I'M ASKING YOU, WOULD YOU BE MY VALENTINE

BY MY VALENTINE
YOU'LL HAVE YOUR CLOTHES OFF IN NO TIME
BE MY VALENTINE
OUR BODIES WILL BE ENTWINED
BE MY VALENTINE
DON'T TELL ME I'M NOT YOUR KIND
IF YOU'RE NOT MY VALENTINE
I WILL BREAK YOUR SPINE

BABY YOU'RE A HONEY BABY YOU'RE A FOX
I'LL TREASURE YOU MORE THAN MY XBOX
I'D RUN BUCK NAKED IN THE STREET IF YOU ASKED ME TO

AND EVEN IF YOU'RE ANGRY AND YOU KICK ME IN THE NUTS
I'M THE ONLY GUY WHO'LL NEVER EVER HATE YOUR GUTS
SO PLEASE SAY YOU WILL COZ BABY I'M ASKING YOU

BE MY VALENTINE
COZ DARLING YOU LOOK SO FINE
BE MY VALENTINE
YOUR BUM IS JUST DEVINE
BE MY VALENTINE
PLEASE PLEASE DON'T DECLINE
BE MY VALENTINE
BABY CAN'T YOU READ THE SIGN
SO BE MY VALENTINE
YOU STUPID GIRL JUST BE MINE
BE MY VALENTINE
OUR BODY FLUIDS MUST COMBINE
BE MY VALENTINE
YOU'LL CONTINUE MY BLOOD LINE
BE MY VALENTINE
THE MOLE I HAVE I SWEAR IT'S BENIGN
BE MY VALENTINE
DON'T TREAT ME LIKE FRANKENSTEIN
BE MY VALENTINE
I GOT NO MORE WORDS THAT RHYME

remember how we laughed until we cried?

2006-03-26T00:05:00.000-08:00

close your eyes, dry your tears, cos when nothing seems clear

you'll be safe here

when the light disappears, and when this world's insincere

you'll be safe here

when nobody hears you scream, i'll scream with you

you'll be safe here.

hey people. wassup? =) okay I AM SICK. i've been suffering from a fever =( which makes me seem pretty dao cos sometimes i can't really smile properly. and i have a S-P-L-I-T-T-I-N-G HEADACHE RIGHT NOW. ugh. it's horrible. everytime i sneeze or something, my head goes WHACKKKKK somehow. oh well.

so yst was family day =) which is when i fell sick. but anyway! it was fun. haha. anddddd the youth mass people were so so noisy, i could hear them from my room last night, me with my OUCH OUCH head and a freaking fever. yeah. kinda sucky, you know.

how did i get to that anyway? okay. no, i was talking about family day. it was pretty fun! all these small boys and their dads found it extremely funny to throw many many water bombs at us 304ians. over. and. over. again. ARGH, STUPID SADISTS. oh well. ahha. thennnn crystal n vic and me went to eat dinner at kfc, but i hardly ate i tell youuuu that's how weird it was. yes. okay. then i came home and bathed and almost collapsed into my bed AT FIVE OR SIX SOMETHING. how weird? okay. then my mum came in afterwards and she found me like huddled up in my bed. yeah. so she proclaimed me sick and we took my temperature, THIRTY NINE.ONE DEGREES CELSIUS. my godddd. so i thought i was gonna die cos i remembered what miss tan said in bio once, that you can die of a fever cos you're enzymes could get denatured or something to that effect. i was gonna cry already okay.

then this morning, i woke up at seven something. like whoa- clare does NOT wake up that early on sundays. so i took my temperature again and it had RISEN during the night to 39.4 =( so i ate and went back to sleep and! this is the happy part, when i woke up it was SWEATING. i have never been happier to sweat. (bytheway, that meant that my fever was dropping. duh.) so i took my temperature and it was 38.4 or smth and i went to bathe and kinda daoed people, SORRY AHHH, and laughed at a funny man and found out that someone's relative died of heart attack, and he's really young, and went for lunch with char and shar and chris and mike and came home and fell asleep on my bio book and now i'm online typing this after i sent the history stuff to christine and laughed about the powerpoint she's making. yes yes.

okay. so that was one. long. post. so, BYE =)

p.s. anyone watching the match later? =( tell me the results...

rivermaya

2006-03-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

okay, so i've heard of them, saw them in public, but never ever heard their music before. they rock! haha. the song here is 214 by Rivermaya. nice? nice? i could only find two, you know? it's nice! ahaha. i like it =)

and please PLEASE DON'T SUE ME =( i swear it isn't my song, lyrics, anything, but it's REALLY REALLY good and that's why it's on my blog...yeah. just don't sue me! how to like a band's music after that lah? haha. anyone tell me ahhh, does rivermaya have a cd? cos i wanna get it if they do! =)

okay so today's...friday! yes yes. coincedentally met charlie atSubway. like whoa! i NEVER EVER meet friends coincedentally, so it was quite cool =) AND I HAVENT SEEN THAT IDIOT FOR SO LONG LAH AIYOOO. ahaha. okay. so after Subway i went with ss, angeline, maria and kathy to go get their class tee. it's nice =) and then after Chikos, we (ss n me) cabbed back to parkway where i went for tuition and she went home.

tuition was another funny one. there were three kc girls there that night. one sec4, sec3 and one sec2 (i think she's sec2. hehe) aaaaand, there were others lah! that girl i always see on saturdays and some dude from godknowswhichschool and and and.. no one already. yup. but hey! it was pretty funny. laughed kinda a lot. yeah. okay lah. ahhaha. tuition is funny, especially when you have a lame teacher to joke around with. it just makes the learning process more fun.

soooo yes. tmr is family day! THIS IS A CALL FOR ALL EX-KCIANS OR PEOPLE WHO KNOW PEOPLE WHO WANNA COME =) come come to kc at 10am tmr! gonna be so fun! =) but then! it's FAMILY day, so it's mostly for kc family. come if you like though, cos i'd personally have nothing against it, it just won't be nice to be blamed if some teacher happens to be bored and reading this and! then i get in trouble cos you didn't get that family day really meant FAMILY day. yup. okay. so. yes. FAMILY DAY! HAHAHAHA.

greaterthanthreeeeeeeeeeeeee

i've been VJed.

2006-03-22T04:28:00.000-08:00

hurhurhur.

i spent my afternoon at vj cos' i was sticking around to keep ss company AND do my math AND get help from vic AND laugh a lot AND hear a sick joke from ss AND get called 'extra' AND laugh somemore AND shout and scream AND get caught in the rain AND walk all the way with gabrina (the new-found friend! hur.) AND get forced to promise her that i'll go for youth mass AND complain about my class shirt AND make fun of the ahem TRAININGS one AND walk up and down by the side of the track at vj AND get stared at by whoever shit freaks AND end up not knowing how to do math AND finally, leaving to go home AND getting stuck at the back of the bus AND not being able to hear my music over the frigging engine of the frigging bus AND coming home to grim-faced parents AND eating dinner AND bathing AND coming online AND typing this shit passage of nothing.

haha. SO! therefore, i've been vjed. the school has infected me. the canteen is really nice.

nil desperandum

2006-03-20T07:04:00.000-08:00

NO DESPAIR, CLARE IS HERE! muahaha. i don't know what the shit i'm talking about now. oh well! life is -shuang- for the moment. for the moment. FOR THE MOMENT. mostly cos it was just the first day of school and i didnt wanna ruin it by being annoyingly annoying and sad and down and basically, not clare-like. ahha. anyway there was drama today, so that cheered me up if anything. i was only lamenting about how much FREAKING TUITION I HAVE. I MEAN I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING IS ULTIMATELY REALLY HUGE AND ALL BUT SERIOUSLY! I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING!

and how the bloody fuck does EVERYONE IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE KNOW about the transfer thing WHEN IT ISN'T EVEN FREAKING CONFIRMED. YES YOU READ IT HERE, AND YES I AM CLARE TYPING THIS FURIOUS MESSAGE. the first thing people saked me in the netball court? "Clare, is it true that you're changing classes to 3/6?" i'm like WTF LAH HOW DID YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THAT? FUCK ALL YOU UNTRUSTABLE- FRIENDS LAH. just damn you to argh! ARGH! I DID NOT WANT ANYONE TO KNOW ABOUT THIS OKAY! I MEAN LIKE, I STILL HAVE MY DIGNITY AND FREAKING LIFE RIGHT? IF I WANTED EVERYONE TO KNOW THEN I'D GO GIVE OUT POSTERS AND MAKE ANNOUNCEMENTS ABOUT IT. SO JUST -SHUT THE FUCK UP!- IF YOU WANNA TALK LIKE YOU KNOW ME. assholes! if i wanted you to know, i'd tell you!

AND ANYWAY. the full story is this, since everyones gonna know some version of it anyway, and i'd rather it be the truth. okay. i MAY be transferring to 3/6 - and this is ONE BIG MAYBE ABOUT EVERYTHING - if and ONLY IF i can do well in the pure chem, bio and physics papers at mid year. OKAY? HAPPY NOW? MID YEAR. SO JUST UGH!I HAVE ENOUGH GOING ON INMY FREAKING LIFE HERE! aiyah. whatever lah. stupid shit people. ARGH YOU!

anyway. i am kinda over that now. all i'm feeling ishungry. ahaa. what a big surprise. eh i realised, i recover fast ah. maybe i suffer from moodswings after all. ahaha. noo wait. but moodswings are like swinging. and mine just come and go. like...airplanes in the airport, they come, take some stuff, and go. yup. i guess. haha.

goodbye my B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L blog (=

rock'n'roll ain't no pollution! rock'n'roll will never die! =D

2006-03-19T05:12:00.000-08:00

THE WORDS OF ACDC. ahha.

ahaha. okay. gotta do lit now, i dunno why i'm blogging. hur. okay. see you people in school tmr =(

why are the faces of some of them beaming?

2006-03-18T02:12:00.000-08:00

"Why"

-NicholeNordeman

We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy.

He said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse that of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why

There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes

So I said Daddy why are they screaming?

Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?

I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows

Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as if he's going to cry
You said he is stronger than all of those guys-

Daddy please tell me why, why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy and daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy, boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering if there was something that he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out, I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from a cross:

And it said :

Father why are they screaming.

Why are the faces of some of them beaming?

Why are they casting their lots for my clothes??
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows,

Father please can't you do something?

I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size,

Father remind me why, why does everyone want me to die.

When will I understand why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus this hurts me much more than you know

But this dark hour I must do nothing.
Though I've heard your unbearable cry, the power in your blood destroys all the lies, soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by her father's side.

Now I can tell you why, she is why you must die.

:'( really really sad and touching song. it's a christian song.

and by the way, for un-enlightened people, i am a catholic, and catholics are christians too. so shut up if you don't know about my religion, thanks.

memories~ronin

2006-03-18T01:06:00.000-08:00

hey people. listening to the song by ronin - Memories. nice nice nice. damn sweet/nice/NICE. sorry but, will the band mind if i put it as my blog song? it's too addictive. hah. DON'T SUE ME, LEVAN!

okaaaay. now. i shall have tuition almost everyday. woohoo. BUT MY FRIDAY NIGHTS WILL BE FREE. oh wow. okay. let me tell you my sad life.

MON - CHEM/BIO TUITION
TUES - CHINESE SHIT.
WED - PHYSICS TUITION
THURS - CHEM/BIO
FRI - hehehe free!
SAT (MORNING) - MATH. (night) FREEEEE.
SUNDAY - FREE-EST DAY OF ALL.

okay. gotta go now.

i think i have writers block. oooooh shit and school starts on monday =S

DIE LAH!

mosaic is some COOL SHIT MAN. do what thou wilt, baby!

2006-03-17T06:48:00.000-08:00

this is effing. cool. shit. hahaha. I MET LEVAN, SEAN AND BANG FROM RONIN =D
and WAYNE THUNDER FROM THE SUNS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE SUNS OKAY.
AND AMANDA AND DESMOND FROM ELECTRICO

BIGSMILES - HEHE.

okay. the high is still on. ronin ROCKS. took LOADS of pictures of the band. super cool. okay, and lots more pictures of sean and levan than THE BAND, but hey! i tried. hahaha - as if.

okay.

BYE

clare <3 ronin a lot worx. OH GOD, I'M BECOMING LIAN.

2006-03-13T18:11:00.000-08:00

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. and i was KIDDING ABOUT THE LIAN/WORX THING. oh ew, do not disgust me. so yesterday was campus superstar, the..semi-finals. erm. aiyah. i dunno lah! but there was four girls and four guys. crystal and me think that khim shouldn't have gotten out, because her voice quality is so up-there, but for...erm. will i get sued if i put her name? nvm, then i shall get sued. okay, we think clara's voice just doesn't have the same standard of quality as the others. she's just got more supporters, and if her voice isn't exactly beautiful or outstanding, then just think for a second, why would she have so many supporters?

i'm not gonna answer that question, cos i know my tongue can be kinda sharp at times. and this is on the INTERNET, for her sake, i shall not put it up. yep. (i can be nicelike that.)

i'msupposed to be doing literature now. my lit essay. it's due tomorrow =( but i have a few hours to spare so yeah...

teresa rocks the stage man.

theMIDDLE

2006-03-11T07:23:00.000-08:00

"The Middle"

-Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle, it'll up the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.

no one cares how close you are to the edge,

and no, no one sees

the changes you've made to yourself

You're On The Edge - Rooney

anyway. today has been...chaotic. terribly emotive today. don't ask. it's a bad thing to ask me. it'll just go on and on...and this is a public blog anyway.

<3>

...i just feel like you're not giving me the confidencei need to go through with the transfer, i just need you to stop asking me questions and believe in me more. don't tell me to prove them wrong, because i don't need to do that. all i need is support and understanding...but i guess you weren't listening in miss scully's talk, cos she said to 'listen to your daughter' and you just aren't taking heed. well thanks. thanks for the tuition. thanks for providing for me. but maybe now it's my turn to do this - just something i need to do on my own. cheer me on from the sidelines, cos this is one race i gotta do by myself...

i know i'm slow, but...

2006-03-08T04:32:00.001-08:00

okay. so i found out like. erm. a few days ago from...some Suns fan. i think it was nick cos he's probably one of the...okay not the point. san singer's elbow is broken or smth? and and and AND IT WAS AT THE NGEE ANN SCHOOL THING AND LUKE DID NOT TELL ME THIS. AND THE SUNS ARE ~~PERFORMING~~ ROCKING AT THE POWER-WHATEVER NEXT SUNDAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY AND I THOUGHT IT WAS FRIDAY, BUT NOOO IT HAS TO BE THE NIGHT BEFORE SCHOOL REOPENS. =( liddat how to go. HOW to ask permission. HOW, I ASK YOU HOWWWW ='(

okay. check out this dude's blog man. http://www.tanttt.blogspot.com, electrico is performing! ahhh! at the arts house! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! but i'm kinda sure already that i can't go, so...i shall depend on this unknowndude for photographs, cos he got some pretty goodones at rfg, although i WAS there myself.

bytheway, i didn't bring a camera. EMBARASSING! okay but it was over a month ago, so yeah.

The SUNS Live at Mosaic. Last Show In Singapura for 2006! Do Not MISS!

=( what if i cannot go. SERIOUSLY, I MUST QUESTION - WHY, OF ALL DAYS IN THE MOSIAC FEST, MUST IT BE SUNDAY?

oh well. anyway...

tmr is thursday only. THURSDAY. argh. why not friday. THEN SCHOOL ENDS, YOU SEE.

[listening to theSuns, mr brown's show interview]

hehehehhe it's damn funny.

censorship will kill all art forms. YES YES, HEAR HEAR. ahahahhaa. okay sorryyyyyyyyyyy KINDA HIGH LAH laughing too much. this interview is some good freaking shit.

i know i'm slow, but...

2006-03-08T04:32:00.000-08:00

moulin rouge

2006-03-05T05:12:00.000-08:00

THE GREATEST THING YOU'LL EVER LEARN IS JUST TO LOVE AND BE LOVED IN RETURN.

moulin rouge is on ch5.

ahh now it's over. SATINE<3christian.>

oookay. i think i'm kinda mad. insane. lost-my-mind. yes. uh-huh.

the importance of being idle (oasis)

2006-03-05T04:11:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLE, WHAT'S ROCKING THE BOAT? no wait, i meant house. hur. okay. sorry. my SOF is MIA. ROFL.

we'll pay you handsomely, don't you see

but don't steal our sun

you're just killing fun

and! i haven't spoken about the LAME LAME LAME conversation this morning/aftn after mass, outside my house. my dear parents are. sigh. haha. weird SOF>sense of humour. sooooo the convo went smth like this...

My own parents and the Kang people congregating outside my house/the ice cream cart and just tan-tian-ing. (talking.) and when i arrived on the scene, attention was focused on the...(what's his name.) the older brother. and his relationship with this girl who EVERYONE knows. so yeah.

mymother: so you're going out with the YOUNGER sister?

whatshisname: yes, i am not going out with the younger brother lah...

everyone-except-(ithink)-me: hahahahaha...

mymother: yeah, then it'd be like brokeback mountain...but it's okay, your parents are quite open right?

everyone: stoned silence from the younger generation, and my parents look at their parents

theirmother: i am quite open lah.

theirfather: nothing

suddenly after some laughing

mymother: eh so are you gonna watch the show? (general, but looks at my dad)

myfather: ...my back is broken.

adults: HAHAHAHAHAHA!

mennick: ha. ha. ha.

SIGH. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT JOKE MAN. MY OWN FATHER OKAY. haha

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i fell asleep during homily. haha.

AHHHHH OKAY OKAY BLOG AGAIN IN 10MINS.

a phone call made me realise i'm wrong

2006-03-05T00:49:00.000-08:00

EVERYTHING EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE
EVERYTHING EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT =)

-The Middle, Jimmy Eat World.

nice song, nice song.

okay. my msn nickname? yeah, i have NOTHING against laughing at your own jokes. really. cos i do at mine. ha ha ha. sometimes. oh well. sooo, the line is actually a line from a song. yeah.

"that's when i love you"

aslyn

when you have to look away

when you don't have much to say

that's when i love you, i love you just that way

to hear you stumble when you speak

or see you walk with two left feet

that's when i love you, love you endlessly

and when you're mad when you've lost a game,

forget i'm waiting in the rain

baby, i love you

i love you anyway

cos here's my promies made tonight

you can count on me for life

cos that's when i love you

when nothing you do can change my mind

the more i learn, the more i love

the more my heart can't get enough

that's when i love you,

when i love you no matter what

so when you turn to hide your eyes

cos the movie made you rcy

that's when i love you, i love you a little more each time

and when you can't quite match your clothes

or when you laugh at your own jokes

that's when i love you, i love you

more than you know

and when you forget that we had a date

that look that you give when you show up late

baby, i love you

i love you anyway

that's when i love you

when nothing, baby, nothing you do could change my mind

the more i learn, the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough
that's when i love you,
when i love you no matter what

oh, oh

no matter what.=)

sweet right? damn sweet lah.

the brothers grimm

2006-03-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

hellooooooooooooo, i just watched THE BROTHERS GRIMM. didn't think it was anything fantastic. nope. just made me kinda high cos i was spooking myself a lot. ahha. okay. hope i can sleep later. maybe i should watch the oc for awhile. to, you know, calm down. yeah. OKAY. SET. WATCHNOW. muahahah! =)

you only live once

2006-03-03T06:10:00.000-08:00

de de de de de de dede de de

SOME PEOPLE THINK THEYRE ALWAYS RIGHT

OTHERS ARE QUIET AND UPTIGHT

OTHERS SEEM SO VERY LISTLESS

INSIDE THEY MAY BE SAD AND LONELY

HOLD ON IF YOU FEEL LIKE LETTING GO

HOLD ON, IT GETS BETTER THAN YOU KNOW

erm yeah.

UGH THERES THERES PEOPLE IRRITATINGME!

oh okay people're going offline. yay. =) i'm happy again. ahha.

OC TIME. it was just a break.=p

2006-03-03T05:28:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0A2kA4IqkU&eurl= AHHH! SETH AND SUMMER! AHHHHHH! GO WATCH! SO SWEEET! bad quality, BUT SO SWEET! =)

HAH I'M PUTTING IT ON MY FRIENDSTER COS' IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO SWEEEEEEEEET! AH! AH! =)

okay. so. about my day.

it sucked. i failed lit. =( i failed LIT okay and and...yea. i mean it's still my favourite subject and all but i guess i just have to face that i...i'm not suited for the subject.

and i'm kinda thinking of quitting the drama thing. i just can't fit into it. i mean, you ask me to ACT or SING or DANCE or fembarass myself, i mean if it's for emdd or book and music week or some performance, well sure. i love the audience. but to take an exam for drama? i'm just not very comfortable with it. the people in the class are really really nice, but it's not about them izzit? the teacher is really nice too, and i know he can get at LEAST three quarters of the class a distinction and all, but...i dunno, i just don't think it suits me very well. i'm not exactly drama material. i mumble, to start with. and i'm not even aware that i mumble, i just do. and i ramble. like what i'm doing now. see? stupid. OKAY. I SHALL SHUT UP ABOUT DRAMA.

sooo...yst was choir. kinda okay? i don't know how to put it, and a public, online, open-to-all blog is NOT the place.

IT STARTED OUT WITH A KISS

HOW DID IT END UP LIKE THIS?

IT WAS ONLY A KISS,

IT WAS ONLY A KISS.

i was watching the oc since after dinner till now. it really really rocks. thank you my bunch of wonderful friends =) and i love seth<3summer.>

and caleb sucks too. AND JULIE COOPER. so basically those who ROCK are the four main stars and sandy and kirsten and jimmy. if i think of anyone else, i'll let you know. oh and luke and his gay dad.

okay. i know everyone is bored. hahaha. HOLS ARE COMGIN! AHHHHH!

AND I CAN WATCH THE -WHOLE- DVD!

and crystal, i owe you TONS now cos first was the wallet then it was like every week 5 dollars or smth then then now THIS. thanks a lot!

but i still love ya woman. ahahhaha. i rock right. i know lah.

r&rQ

england

2006-03-02T05:58:00.000-08:00

hellooooooooooooooo.

i feel sad/happy. i don't know if it's actually POSSIBLE or logical, but that's just the way i'm feeling. mostly it's like shit. as summer says in oc, we need to vibrate at higher frequencies and not think about bitches on boats. yeah.

BYEEEEEEEEEE,...

m&ms do WONDERS for the soul.

cute without the E.

2006-03-01T06:15:00.000-08:00

hellooooooooooooo again. so yes. three songs. posted consecutively. yes yes. good?
haha. i'm kinda in a good mood now cos i just watched two episodes of the oc season two =) it is so so nice.

summer and seth and SO gonna get back together. and i know i just made myself sounds completely bimbo, BUT! IT'S OKAY! BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NOT! uh-huh. anyway. seth<3summer. zach ="(">

hahaha.

ARGH. I JUST PASSED SOCIAL STUDIES. LIKE ON THE DOT =( damn sad lah k. s oan noyin g,imea niST UDIEDo ka yan dth iski ndof shi tth atig etbac k?wha tth eh ell.

I'M ALRIGHT, I'M GONNA MAKE IT, EVEN IF I GOTTA FAKE IT =)

WE'RE GONNA DIE LIKE THIS,

YOU KNOW,

MISERABLE AND OLD

I REALLY GOTTA HAND IT TO YOU

"You Only Live Once"

-The Strokes

Oooooh
Some people think they're always right
Others are quiet and uptight
Others they seem so very nice nice nice nice nice oh oh
Inside they might feel sad and wrong

Oh no
29 different attributes
And only 7 that you like, uh oh
20 ways to see the world, oh oh
Or 20 ways to start a fight

Oh don't dont don't
Get up
I can't see the sunshine
I'll be waiting for you baby
'Cause I'm through
Sit me down
Shut me up
I'll calm down
And I'll get along with you

Ooooooo-ooooo-ooooooh
A man don't notice what they got
Women think of that a lot
1000 ways to please your man oh oh
Not even one requires a plan
Countless odd religions too
It doesn't matter which you choose
One stubborn way to turn your back
This I've tried, and now refuse

Oh don't don't don't
Get up
I can't see the sunshine
I'll be waiting for you, baby
'Cause I'm through
Sit me down
Shut me up
I'll calm down
And I'll get along with you

Alright..
Shut me up
Shut me up up up up up
And I'll get along with you...

2006-03-01T06:12:00.000-08:00

"Ohio Is For Lovers"

-Hawthorne Heights

Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
[x2]

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
My final breath is gone
So I can fall asleep tonight

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
[to fade]

2006-03-01T06:03:00.000-08:00

"Jude Law and A Semester Abroad"

-Brand New

Whatever poison's in this bottle will leave me broken sore and stiff.
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at. He owes me one last wish.
So here's a present to let you know I still exist.
I hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly contagious on his lips.

But I got a plan (I got a plan)
Drink (drift) for forty days and forty nights.
A sip for every second-hand tick.
And for every time you fed me the line, "you mean so much to me...".
I'm without you.

[Chorus x2]
So tell all the English boys you meet, about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
Who would do anything you say.

(And even if her plane)
And even if her plane crashes tonight she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage, or drowning at the bottom of the sea.
"Jess, I still taste you, thus reserve my right to hate you."
And all this empty space that you create does nothing for my flawless sense of style.

It's 8:45 (it's 8:45). The weather is getting better by the hour.
(Rains all the time) I hope it rains there all the time.
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied.
I'm without you.

[Chorus x2]
So tell all the English boys you meet, about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
Who would do anything you say.

Who would do anything you say

Never gonna get it right, you're never gonna get it [x7]

[x2 (previous singing continues in the background)]
No more songs about you
After this one, I am done
You are, you are, you're gone

[Chorus x2 (previous singing continues in the background)]
So tell all the English boys you meet, about the American boy back in the states.
The American boy you used to date.
Who would do anything you say.

it is a wednesday and i am AT HOME. whoa.

2006-03-01T01:17:00.000-08:00

haha. okay. okay. haha.

my laughter has evolved into some weird sound which i cannot identify. oh well. and i have a cough and it's so ANNOYING. aiyo. ermmm and...I HAVE THE OC =)

haha. okay. soo. soooo. did i mention that man u won the match on sunday? YAY. hahahaha! THEY WON! THEY ROCK! haha. okay.

monday i went for campus superstar. third time alr. the numbers are getting smaller for kc. i thought they would be getting larger. sooo anyway. many, many funny things happened. like there was SO MANY ahem IDIOTS haha SCREAMING FOR JY JY JY JY. =p

okay thennn sudden;y there was silence lah. dunno why. siao lah the audience. then this really loud voice guy voice goes...JUNYANG...BAO WO!

-erupts into weird strangled laughter-

i almost cried cos i was laughing too much. bloody funny. OKAY, IT WAS FUNNY AT THE TIME OKAY? ass. ahahahahha WHO THE HELL AM I TLAKING TO

okay shit. CRYSTAL! YOU'RE RUBBING OFF ON ME! I'M TALKING TO MYSELF! ahh. hahaha.

hahahaha.

oh shit. okay nvm.

theOCseasontwo, I LOVE MY FRIENDS...

2006-02-28T06:17:00.000-08:00

helloooooooo. =) oc season two is in my hands. muahaha. I LOVE CRYSTAL, TILDA, AMY AND ETHY. yes they rock.

okay. so whoever wants to watch. tell me. haha. I'LL THINK ABOUT LENDING YOU. =p

okaaaaaaaay gotta gonow, now even supposed to be blogging/msning. BYEEE =)

ps. my phone bill is skyhigh so try not to msg me and all. thanks!

i wanna watch brokeback.

2006-02-26T01:11:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA I WANNA WATCH THEGAYSHOW/BROKEBACKMOUNTAIN. haha. anyway, michael said it's pretty sad. =( okay. but i still wanna watch it. haha. okay. nvm.

SOOOOOO sat class yst right. kinda boring lah, but i wouldnt know how to improve it. haha. ermmmmm. yeah. then lom tuanbai. DAMN FUNNY LAH. rofl. anyway. IS THE BLOGSKIN NICE?! i think it's bloody nice. THE PICTURE WAS TAKEN AT RFG'06 (rock for good 2006) AND THAT THAT THAT IS RONIN! *big big BIG smile - hehe*

SO YES. TAG. READ. ENJOY. BLAH. BYE! =)

manu fans! match later! manu-wigan! WATCH LAH.

"Innocent"

-Our Lady Peace

Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous

Spends his time alone

In the basement

With Lennon and Cobain

A guitar and a stereo

While he wishes he

Could escape this

It all seems so contagious

Not to be yourself and faceless

In a song that has no soul

[Chorus:]

I remember feeling low

I remember losing hope

I remember all the feelings

And the day they stopped

We are,

We are all innocent, we are all innocent

We are, we are, we are

We are all innocent, we are all innocent

We are, we are

Oh, Tina's losing faith in what she knows

Hates her music

Hates all of her clothes

Thinks of surgery

And a new nose

Every calorie is a war

While she wishes she

Was a dancer

And that she'd never

Heard of cancer

She wishes God would give her

Some answers

And make her feel beautiful

[Chorus]

One day

You'll have to let it go,

One day

You'll stand up on your own, you'll stand up on your own

Yeah

Remember losing hope,

Remember feeling low,

Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

We are,

We are all innocent, we are all innocent

We are, we are, we are,

We are all innocent, we are all innocent

We are, we are

We are,

We are all innocent

(One day, you'll have to let it go, you'll have to let it go)

We are all innocent

We are, we are, we are,

We are all innocent, we are all innocent

We are, we are

We are,

We are all innocent

(One day, you'll stand up on your own, stand up on your own)

We are all innocent

We are, we are, we are,

We are all innocent, we are all innocent

We are, we are

We are... we are all innocent...

I KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE, SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

2006-02-25T07:46:00.000-08:00

helloooooo. wassuppppppp ahahahahaha! just got back from legion tuan bai/recruitment meeting. eat and laugh until can die. haha. =) but fun lah. ANYWAY. there were all these bloody jerks at the esplanade roof terrace. cos...aiyah, long story. so go and die, if you wanna know. haha.

ANYWAY. life is is is =/ now lah i guess. its OKAY but then i dunno whether the OKAY will last. probably not yeah. oh well!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i had tuition today. the time was cut down by about 1/2 an hour, cos people kept calling me and i had to leave early to go to school on time to give my compo. and i think i wrote it quite pro-ly okay. it was...hmm...INTERESTING. and at least it stuck to the title lah.

"SomewhereOutThere"

-OurLadyPeace

Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space

We laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
I watched the red orange glow
I watched you float away

Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
You've gone to save your tired soul
You've gone to save our lives

I turned on the radio
To find you on satellite
I'm waiting for the sky to fall
I'm waiting for a sign

And all we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see yeah
I know your out there, somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity yeah
I know you're out there, somewhere out there

Hope you remember me
When you're home sick and need a change
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste
I know you'll come back some day
On a bed of nails I wait
I'm praying that you don't burn out or fade away

And all we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see yeah
I know your out there, somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity yeah
I know you're out there, somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see
I know your out there, ohhh
Your falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there, somewhere out there

Your falling back to me
The star that I can see yeah
I know your out there, somewhere out there
Your falling out of reach
Defying gravity yeah
I know you're out there, somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
I know, I know
You're falling out of reach ohhhhhh
I know...

Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous

Spends his time alone in the basement

With a Lennon and Cobain and

A guitar and a stereo
And while he wishes he could escape this

But it all seems so contagious

Not to be yourself and faceless

In a song that has no soul

I remember feeling lowI remember losing hope

And I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped
We are, we are all innocentWe are all innocent

We are, we are...
We are, we are all innocent

We are all innocent

We are, we are...

Oh, and Tina losing faith in what she knows

Hates her music, hates all of her clothes

Thinks of surgery and a new nose

Every calorie's a war
And while she wishes she was a dancer

And that she’d never heard of cancer

She wishes God would give her some answers

And make her feel beautiful

ohgoddamnit.

2006-02-24T05:21:00.001-08:00

i just got a call from my chinese teacher :S she wants to speak to my dad cos' i didn't hand in my compo. i totally forgot to bring it lah...aiyah die. she sounded pretty freaky. oh well..

soo...new blogskin. nice? i think it's nice. OKAY. THE PIC IS THANKS TO www.tanttt.blogspot.com THANK YOU VERY MUCH, DUDE. but then i added the wordsmyself lah. i mean duh.

anyway. i'm getting kinda worried for for for chinese. i mean. she's scary sia. oh well. what can i do?!

she asked me to bring the compo to school tmr, from like 11-11.30 or smth but i have tuition. so yeah. my schedule really really sucks. anyway. argh. like on top of everything, now this? i forsee a bad ending to this rubbish.

i never really liked chinese. never excelled at it or anything. i always preferred english. lit. history. not math. humho.

AND i failed bio overall. but then! cos i'm in combined sc, so my marks were pulled up by my chem marks. woohoo.

ohgoddamnit.

2006-02-24T05:21:00.000-08:00

continual assessment

2006-02-22T03:56:00.000-08:00

emath and amath. i passed both. but both not very good.
emath - 27/40
amath - 20/40 =(

and thennn
chem(sub) - 13/20
bio(sub) - TEST ONE - 10.5/25...
SIGH...I CANNOT DO BIO PROPERLY...it's soo MEMORYISH. and my memory has never been good about stuff. haaaaiiiiiiyyyyyyyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

and now EVERYONE is stressing. okay, just about everyone. yeah. mostly everyone. so it's kinda the same. ahha. ARGH SEE, I'M TALKING RUBBISH ALR.

sooo...history CA tmr, it's the LAST FREAKING PAPER. so yes. GOODBYE. see you...tmr! yes. back to normal-blogging-updating-thingy again.

PS ANTON, I BLOGGED, YOUASS.

ARGH. AFTER 85 YEARS YOU KNOW...wtf!

2006-02-18T23:12:00.000-08:00

HELLO. MAN U LOST! ARGH! LIVERPOOL TO MANU 1-NIL. ARGHHHHH. AND ALAN SMITH GOT INJURED TOO. ARGHHHHHHHHH...

oh well...thankgod i didn't bet on the match. THANK GOD I DON'T HAVE MONEY TO BET. yes yes i love being empty-wallet-ed sometimes. muahhaa. BUT STILL! THEY LOST! THEY FREAKING LOST! AHHH!...ferdinand didn't play. injury. smith came on at 2nd half (and got injured, poor dude. it looked shit-shit-can-die painful.)

so anyway. i have inherited my brother's computer, while he gets the new laptop ARGH and my mum now has the oldest com in the house. woohoo. fly a flag. hahahaha siao already, sooo sorry...

blog later. gotta restart my NEW com. hehehehehe...

ARGH THEY LOST! =(

manu still rocks =)

indielovediscoshockrock

2006-02-17T05:38:00.000-08:00

1. Popularly known as?
clareEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, 'eh IDIOT!'

2. AGE?
fourteen. no, fifteen. NO, FOURTEEN.

3. BIRTHDAY?
julyyyyyyy

4. WHAT'S YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
cancer. TOUCH WOOD TOUCH WOOD

5. Who is your cutest guy friend?
umm...=p

6. Can't live without..
FRIENDS! music! love! handphone! god! god! god!AIR. food. water. mu ha ha.

9. Choice of music?
er. ROCK AND ROLL. DUH.

10. Food trip?
foooood ahhhh...WEEEEELL. hard to say. haha. depends on the day.

11. Fantasy girlfriend?
uh uh uh what girlfriend?!

12. What kind of bf/ gf are you?
a...tolerant one. haha. EH THAT'S A GOOD TRAIT OKAY.

13. What will make you fall for a guy/ girl?
v.gd.sof (VERY GOOD SENSE OF HUMOUR), has a nice smile, siao enough.

14. Turn-offs?
chinese-speaking like 24/7, slacker and stupid, nerdy, childish, beng, er...

15. If you had a million bucks,
what would you spend it on?
well am i feeling nice or selfish?

16. Longest time you've ever spent on the
phone?
er dunno. WHO TIMES THESE THINGS. mad.

17.Did you get tired of it?
haha like no.

18. The one thing you try to do everyday?
control my temper.

19. Vegetables or fruits?
FRUITS. duh!

20. Favorite soundtrack
right now? THE SUNS!

21. Night out or night in?
night OUT AT A ROCK CONCERT! but that's saying i'm not really that tired too.

22. What's scarier, ghosts or aliens?
er ghosts. definitely.

23. Finish this sentence: If I could be
anything in the world for a day, I'd be..
a guy. to see what it's like to pee standing up. hahahaha...

what happened:

24. today?
schooooool and marinaaaaa

25. On your last birthday?
ROCKED! school, but BEST SCHOOL DAY IN MY LIFE.

26. Yesterday?
school? choir./

27. Last weekend?
CHURCH =/

28. Last Christmas?
'last christmas, i gave you myheart but the very next day, you gav

29. New year's eve?
ermmmmmm AT HOME. see how good i am.

30. Halloween?
didn't celebrate halloween.

31. Last Valentine's day?
ermmm...what ah? OH YES. choir. ahhaha.

32. What's the last thing you ate?
dinner. =D

33. Thing you drank?
water..?

34. Thing you wore?
uniform

35. Last place you went to?
mrt station

36. Last person u saw?
*looks to right* my brother.

37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
tilda i think?

38. Last song you heard?
Rooster - Joy Ride

39. Right this VERY SECOND what are
you eating?
er. nothing.

40. What are you wearing?
BOYS NEED GIRLS shirt and shorts.

41. Any shoes on?
ha. no.

42. Listening to?
rooster. the chicken. LE COQ.

43. Talking to anyone?
amy. but then im not replying. hahahahaha.

44. Are you a vegetarian?
I LOVE MEAT TOO MUCH.

45. Are you a bitch?
umm am i?! ?!?!?! i dunno. sometimes. ahha. i can be SOOO bossy, i even annoy myself.

46. Are you artistic?
ahhahahahahahahahhaahahahWHAT A JOKE

47. Do you write poetry? -
nope. i read it. during lit.

48. Are you a fast runner?
ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

49. Can you ski?
...if i have skiied before, but that was when i was TINY does that count?

50. Did you ever give barbie a haircut?
barbie. haircut. no.

51. Are u naughty (playful)
yes, i am mentally deranged.

52. Do you own a hot pink shirt?
HAAHHAAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHA siaoooo

53. How about orange pants?
eeyerrrrrrrrrrrrr

54. Are you evil?
hehehehe...

keep the dream alive

2006-02-17T05:15:00.000-08:00

hey hey heyyyyyy...

e math ca was today. and got back chem ca. i got 13/20 for chem. not bad lah but not say very good either...anyway the highest was 14.5 lah so it really isn't that bad...

but anyway. not the point. the point is, cos i'm sub sc, i have to add my bio and chem marks together. and TAKE THE PERCENTAGE. GUESS WHAT WHAT WHAT...I JUST PASSED. 52%. LIKE ARGH ARGHHH...

English - pass
Chinese -hur...
E/A math - DUNNO
Chem-Bio - not confirmed yet but 50+%
Core lit - probably quite bad.
Hist-SS - EVEN WORSE. hur...

sooo yeah. next week there's...A MATH, BIO-TEST-TWO, HISTORY AND SOCIAL STUDIES. woohoo.

okaaaaaaaaaaaay. so NOW cos of ethel, i have the oasis cd. THANK YOU ETHELLLLLLLLL. mu haha? lol.

grace, ethel, crystal and moi went to marina sq this aftn. (HELLO, IT'S A FRIDAY LAH K.) and we watched i not stupid too. and it wasn't tear jerking anymore, cos of course i knew what was gonnahappen. BUT THE SHOCK WAS...crystal ethel and grace all didn't cry. TSK TSK TSK...unfeeling people. ahha.

soo yeah. the oasis cd. it's GOOD. it's like...heaven's sounds. BEAUTIFUL lyrics accompanied by BEAUTIFUL music and vocals and all that...

it's all that and more. =) blog later. in umm...10 minutes. yes. i think that's when i'll be bored again. hah.

vday, black hearts and common tests.

2006-02-15T05:40:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOO AND HAPPY BELATED VDAY TO YOU! whoever you are, anyway. ha.

okay. anton. you have been mentioned. you suck! muahaha.

anywayyyyyyyy I'M LISTENING TO TO TO ONE MORE MOMENT AGAIN. ITS STILL NOT LOST IT'S CHARM. HUH. WONDER WHY? ;)

so anyway, i watched Black Maria the video alr, and it's ermmm how to put...haha...it's OKAY LAH! HAHAHAHAHA. guest appearance by amanda ling and bikers and and and godknowswhoelse and levan helf naked and and and well yeah. and sean during the guitar solo, but that's expected. i mean how can you NOT show the lead guitarist during his solo? hmmmmm weird question. but then again, i'm bored. outta my mind.

haha.

okay soooo VDAY SUCKED FOR ME! spent most of my day being pissed off. or being sad. or being pissed off again. or eating. god, i'm so much fatter now compared to december. AND I KNOW WHY, IT'S COS IN DEC ICOULD WAKE UP AT LUNCHTIME AND THEREFORE BE FORCED TO EAT LUNCHES ATHOME. WHICH DOES NOT GIVE CLARE SO MUCH FATS EVERYWHERE. =( so annoying. i mean, in s'pore FAT PEOPLE get stared at a helluva lot. it's not fair! just cos my height is LIKE WHAT IT IS then people automatically assume i'm really fat undermy uniform and and and they tell me i'm fat.

sigh. BUT I'M NOT OVERWEIGHT, YOU DIPSHITS! I'M PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE WEIGHT! SO GO STICK YOUR COMMENTS UP YOURS! muahahaha. GO AND DO IT, MY WORD IS LAWWWW...hahahahahahahhaa.

amy was HIGH today.

siew shuen was HIGH today.

ethel was HIGH today.

i was HIGH HIGH today.

we played 'i never...' with the NEWater people didn't want during the food/water rationing thingy in school.bloody funny.

'i never jumped before!' DRINK

'i never ran before!' DRINK

'i never kissed a granny before!' DRINK

'i never...'

yeah you get the point. hahahahaha it was freaking funny. i probably drank about...4 bottles of water straight? haha MADNESS.

soo then amy got stuck on the DONCHA song after school.

'DONCHAAAAAA' ahahahaahahahahahaha LET ME MAKETHIS CLEAR. YOU HAVE NOT SEEN FUNNY TILL YOU'VE SEEN AMY. muahahahahaha.

:p don't be pissed off with me, amy, but it's the truth! muahaha!

WHACKS HER HEAD WITH FAKE FLOWERS.

(okay see, i told you i was insane.)

AIYO THAT ANTON IS BUGGING ME NOW SOOOO

tata.

indieLOVEdiscoshockrock

victorious heart.

2006-02-13T06:40:00.000-08:00

blame the caffeine for all the 5am phone calls

2006-02-11T04:55:00.000-08:00

hellooooo. there's a match at 1.10am. AND I'M SO WATCHING IT MAN. i miss late-night soccer!

fall out boy

2006-02-10T22:02:00.000-08:00

AHHHHH...shawn lee and joshua ang are on the minds of SO MANY PEOPLE. geez. are they THAT attractive, i wonder? ahha. i just prefer shawn to joshua and OHMYGOD I SOUND LIKE ONE OF THEM...hahahahaha...

i not stupid too.

2006-02-10T06:07:00.000-08:00

seriously, i'm not. OKAY? OKAY? okay.

ahhh whatever. anyway i just watched the show lah. i mean duh. ahha. okay and the show was like...THE TEAR-JERKER OF ALL TEAR-JERKERS. like niagra falls for me. SERIOUS. i was wiping my eyes every few seconds till i was soooo fed up that i just GAVE UP ON WIPING THE DAMN THINGS AWAY. but the show was really good.

makes you think, really. how bad life can be for some. what your parents do for you that you just take for granted. how parents don't LISTEN sometimes. and all they need to do is just that, that's the only remedy. it's really like a vicious cycle.

so yeah. i think my parents are pissed cos it's 10.21 and i'm still in my sch u and i have freaking math tuition tmr and I NEEDA GO NOW SOOOO BYEE...

[indielovediscoshockrock]

SWEET CHILD O' MINE

2006-02-09T04:18:00.000-08:00

guns n' roses. WHOOHOO...i love the intro. ahah. ethel saysss that everyone who plays the electric guitar learns it. AHHH THEN I SHOULD LEARN IT TOO, BABY. hahaha.

okokokokokok. just wanted to say how much i love music.

deep purple's smoke on the water is cool too.

ahhh okay okay. anyone know how to use bluetooth-computer . as in sending pictures. ARGH I CANNOT UDNERSTAND IT. okay nvm. I DUNNO HOW TO BLUETOOTH LAHHHHH... =(

oh well.

indielovediscoshockrock

welcome to wherever you are...

2006-02-09T03:26:00.000-08:00

welcome to wherever you are, this is your life, you've made it this far.

ahhhh hello hello hello. i've been spending my day either slpn (thank god for today!) and watching MTV. so one of the vids was bon jovi's WELCOME TO WHEREVER YOU ARE. it's nice. really cool video. thennn there was switchfoot's WE ARE ONE TONIGHT, mcr's THE GHOST OF YOU, jem's WISH I, err...the strokes JUICEBOX, madonna's SORRY, hm what else...er. well there were a lot. haha. yeah. at least i could remember a few.

so anywayyyyyyyy HOW'S LIFE, EVERYONE, GOOD I HOPE? well life isn't so good for me? cos i'malways sick! ARGH. and when i mean sick, it's really true. I AM SICK. i had a fever yst. and i don't wanna sound self-pitying so i shall shut up.

AH YES. there was simple plan's CRAZY, yellowcard's LIGHTS AND SOUNDS, lifehouse's YOU AND ME, daniel powter's FREE LOOP, beyonce's CHECK ON IT...

argh i'm pissed off like SHITLOADS now. noooo one trusts me! ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY HAVE NOTHING TO NOT TRUST ME ABOUT! i mean seriously. it's damn wtf lah.

oh well. what can i do? AIYAH.

I LOVE THE SUNS MAN. ahha track69. lol.

indielovediscoshockrock

2006-02-07T04:35:00.000-08:00

"One More Moment"
Ronin

Don't take too long to say
"I love you" to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you
Turn around to say goodbye,
with each and every word that passes by,
like a distant memory,
and time keeps slipping away,
and time will turn to grey,
and time will be the one who holds you down,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,

And I want you by my side,
and I need you here tonight,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
and in the end it hits you hard,
please tell me you'll be strong.

soo...one more moment? please? hehe. okay kinda being lame here.

anyway i loveee that song's lyrics man. the tune isn't rock-ish but it's still rocking..?! yeah.

if you still haven't realised, i'm kinda disoriented right now. i've been this way since saturday. THE BLOODY FREAKING CONCERT LAAAAH! hahahaha. okay it just made me REALLY REALLY tired. and it doesnt help that school is so so so so so so SO tiring...but anyway. i'm thinking of tranferring to 3.5 or 3.6. but i don't think it can be done NOW so it'll have to be after mid year results come out. so that means i have to self-study for the pure science papers. and shit man, if i wanna tranfer to 3.6 then i have to self-study for physics. i mean not self study lah i can always get a tutor or one of my sec4 friends to help me or whatever but then then then...it's not like i can always depend on teachers giving me homework and all. it'll have to be dependent on meeee...

but anyway, i'm willing to work hard. i know i can do it, really. it's only whether the teachers will be supportive...i mean, sheryl is doing it right?

if someone else can do it, why can't i? exactly. there is no reason. therefore i can.

yeah. i rock. i know.

okayyyy so there's a bio test tml, gotta study! BIO IS IS IS IS IS IS ISN'T DIFFICULT.

isn't.

INDIE LOVE DISCO SHOCK ROCK ELECTRICO.

2006-02-04T23:28:00.000-08:00

hey peopleeeeee...i'm deaf in my right ear, my feet still ache, my hair was greasy, my skin was sticky, my glasses were slipping and my feet stinked. BUT ROCK FOR GOOD BLOODY ROCKED.

i didn't know the first few bands BUT THEN THE SUNS CAME OUT AHHHHHHHHHH! haha. so yeah. and by that time i was alr PARCHED. i was sooo thirsty. and my feet hurt like hell. i was even considering sitting on the small space on the floor. oh well.

so anyway. i went with ethel and siew shuen. (THANKS SIEWWIE (cuz i kinda forved her to go =p) I KNOW I CAN COUNT ON YOU ahahahaha) and we were DEAD TIRED AFTER THAT but nvmmmm.
we were actually almost late. but we rushed down in a hard-to-find cab. the cabbie was nice. he got tooted at but he discounted us. like errrr twenty cents. ha. soo rushed into RGS for the first time in my life, then waited around till they opened the doors to the hall. and everyone was just RUSHING in like there wasnt any tml.

sooo first up was skyjuice. pretty okay band i guess. i've never heard of them till last night. ahha. then it was er. crossbred izzit? or or west grand boulevard? i can't remember. SO next two, let's just say, it was west grand boulevard and crossbred, in to paticular order. THEN THE SUNS WHOOOOO!
and a lot os people acutally LEFT at this point. i was like wth. WTH. so yeah. the sunssssss

OH CECILIA, WHY DO YOU HAFTA GO?

yeah. then, GUESS WHO?! RONIN!!!!!!!!!!!! siew shuen and me went CRRRRAZY! haha. (yes, we like them.)

I LOVE SEAN'S PLAYING MAN. and then when he took off his shirt, that wasn't too bad either. ;) haha.

and levan is SUPER FUNKY MAN. hahahahahah. really really retarded. he gave a 'famous long speech' or smth.

THEN THEN THE THE BEST WAS LAST! ELECTRICOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

SING IT WITH ME, I WANT YOUUUUUUUUUU!

oh during the chorus right, i turned to my left cuz i noticed a lot of MOVEMENT. like big-crowd-jumping and all. and i thought they looked reeeally reaaaally familiar. and so they were. hur. anyway. it was the the the vs people jumping during the chorus and pointing at amanda of electrico at the 'i want YOU' part.

yeah. i thought so too.

hahaha. so anyway. then it was all over =(

i was frigging tired lah. so walk walk walk walk walkkkkk all the way out and try to answer the phone. but cannot really hear properly cos im frigging deaf ain't i. so yeah, then i could JUST make out my mum saying that they were outside the school alr. so yeah, whatever, i thought i could afford to feep them waiting for just A LITTLE WHILE. anyway we were dead thirsty and we needed WATER. so, with this weird ringing sound in my right ear, i trooped down to the rgs canteen to buy water. walao i couldnt hear anything lah seriously. :S damn scary. ahahhaha. okay not really...ARGH. LAME.

so yeah. then went back up to buy stuff. after some dithering, i bought the west grand wristband in gold, cos i just dont like blue, the suns cd! yeah! AND TWO ELECTRICO BADGES :D my new pride and joy, right after my motorola v3. lessee what else did i buy?

oh oh an electrico sticker. which is currently decorating my beautiful wallet to funkify it more. so yeah.

okay gonna go now. maybe i'll try uploading the few photos my phone took. with kinda bad quality but who gives a shit?! okay so yeah.

ROCKFORGOODROCKEDMYA*S

[indielovediscoshockrockELECTRICO]

AND THESE ARE THE LIVES YOU'D LOVE TO LEAD

2006-02-02T05:47:00.000-08:00

"Dance Dance"
-Fall Out Boys

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse

Barely stuttered out

"A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue

Weighed down with words too over-dramatic

Tonight it's "it can't get much worse"

Vs. "no one should ever feel like.."

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

We will own your thoughts

We'll own the song stuck in your head

We'll leave you kicking and screaming

So you can thank us in the end

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

(I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me)

You always fold just before you're found out

Drink up its last call

Last resort

But only the first mistake and I...

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress

I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

manu - blackburn LOST! argh...

2006-02-02T02:45:00.000-08:00

hey peopleeeee...how's life? life is TIRING MAN...tsk. so yeah.

there was choir today. for the new members. and grace n me had to stay too cos' we're the comm. ethel stayed cos of natalie. so yeah. THEN THEN THEN so funny lah we were doing math and laughing and laughing. and went to eat ice cream =) whoopee haha. i looooove the cone type of ice creams. not the stick kind. i hate the stick kind.

anywayyyyy mr liew brought a newspaper along right, and the FRONT BLOODY PAGE was rio ferdinand from man u and GUESS WHAT? THEY LOST!? :'( sadddddd...HOW CAN MAN U LOSE! ARGH! so sad LAH aiyo...i think it was blackburn 4 man u 3. ARGH ARGH ARGHHHHHHH...=(

WHEN IS THAT STUPID CRYSTAL GETTING BACK? AIYOOOOOO. and people, she did NOT go to m'sia.

everyone has a secret or two...

2006-02-01T02:34:00.000-08:00

hey people. not feeling too good.

i mean how is anyone supposed to cope with truckloads of homework, surprise tests that one'd almost certainly fail and everything else just seeming to go really badly? sucky feeling, but i wouldn't know how to cope with it.

i live with it.

i mean, i don't think i overtax other people, but for myself in certain subjects like english and literature and math and science(s) i work pretty hard for them. when i failed my science paper last year i felt like...nothing in the world i'd ever felt before. felt like shit, lemme tell you. first hand information. then chinese, i mean i never expected to do well or anything, but i DID STUDY AND I THOUGHT I COULD AT LEAST PASS. but no. it had to be the only fail on my report book's eoy results.

then english. i was aiming for a1. i mean, my english, not meaning to boast or anyhting, but this is the plain truth, is of a...higher standard than most singaporeans? i mean, that's probably why my chinese is so horrible, but it's made up for in my english. but i missed by, what, 3 marks?

math. i studied SHITLOADS and i did get 72 for the eoy paper but the final result? a stupid C for my efforts, thank you very much...i know i didnt put enough effort in for like mid years? but STILL...

and lit. -sigh- no comment...

so yeah. i'm trying doubly hard this year, but who knows if it'll come to any good use? oh well. i'll see how god takes it.

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okay soo...school wasn't anything much. just that we had a surprise lit fact test. i was so...well, shocked. i mean, it was seriously a surprise. no hints, even. and it's not like i went that near to my school books during cny. it was cny. i was out visiting, like any normal chinese girl. so yeah. and i know we're supposed to know the play and all, but SERIOUSLY, A FACT TEST?! and these are details that most of us wouldn't have looked at twice...

so the consequence if we fail the test is to stay back everyday after school to do lit stuff. no kidding. i don't have the time for this kinda thing anymore, and i really don't have the energy. as it is, i feel so drained that i could stay curled up in my bed and never face the world again. but then since when was i a quitter? anyway. i'm really tired. my body is constantly aching. i knew sec1/2 was pretty easy-going, but for upper sec to be so taxing? school isn't meant to kill. and someone once told me that these are actually the best years of my life. gee, really? that's a pre-e-etty scary thought, you know.

and i know i laugh a lot and all that but it just isn't the same. my temper is just growing shorter and shorter and shorter...and i feel helpless.

i love my friends i really do. but sometimes it just pains me to even feel angry with them? and so i tell them but they just. don't. get. my. point. and it's like ARGH for me cos i get so frustrated but what else can i do but pray? and hope the lord tells me what to do next.

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anyway. anyone has any violent objections to this blogskin? please don't tell me it's 'so not me' cos i've thought about it and i think it is. i like rock music. i'm able to deal with punks. and i think i can BE apunk, but that's if i wanted to. and knowing me, i'd be really boring as a punk. i mean, just look at me! it doesn't come naturally. so yeah. no offence, btw. i know lotsa people are kinda sensitive now, though i have no idea why...

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i have to say this. i'm not hurt. i'm just frustrated. oh gosh, who knows if you even will get the message. this is a first from me to you. I'M NOT HURT WHEN YOU SHOOT YOUR MOUTH OFF. i just...think you don't understand. you don't understand me and whatever goes through my mind. most people don't. i think that's cos my face doesnt match my emotions sometimes, and it's really really hard to tell. so i'm sorry that all these stupid issues about me being hurt or whatever it is keep coming up. it's a really immature thing but then again...i rather be forever young than have to grow up and let go of my youthful dreams and the fact that i can embrace life with two arms wide open, without a walking stick or a wheelchair. cos life does that to people. just look at your own parents. i mean, can you imagine them having a LOT of fun? as in, laughing like mad people on buses, flirting and giggling, dancing the night away at a disco? cos i cannot picture my own parents in that scene. or maybe even coming back at 3am, DRUNK. nope. i can't. i have a theory about it. life just works that way. people grow up. they always see the big picture. they always do the 'right thing'. they always don't have fun, or so it seems. they laugh at stupid things. they always nag. they become tight-fisted about their hard-earned money.

i'm not saying any of this is out of line or whatever, i meant they're my parents after all. how can anything be out of line? they were the ones who taught me what the line even was.

but i mean like..they don't think about their youth anymore? they've just let it go. and i think that's sad, really...

okay nvm.

i'm happy now, people! no depressing thoughts for me! i had a shower and did math and CAME ONLINE AND LAUGHED.

laughter seriously cures anything. ANYTHING. so yes. make use of laughter! (=

BYEEEE...

SORRY DEBBIE!

2006-01-31T02:02:00.001-08:00

it has come to my attention the startling fact that debbie has the exact same blogskin as moi. therefore, i am truly sorry because i didn't know and SOOOO i'm gonna change it.

however, i am now using my mother's laptop because my computer as a certain defect. (i can't use the keyboard, for some reason. and no it is not because i will get an electric shock)

okayyyy so since my taboard is groaning under the pressure of SO MANY PEOPLE TAGGING, i have to reply here. if not, my reply will stretch from here

to here and that's when the tagboard is THAT SMALL. so yes.

to crystal first, cos i miss her the most, unfortunately: YES I KNEW YOU'D SAY SMTH LIDDAT. ARGH! HAHA DANG YOU LAHHH!

amy amy amy cos SHE IS SIAO: aiyooooooooooooooo SIAO LAH!

debbie!: SORRYYYYYYYY :/

crystalt: hey, you think? lol thanks.

erm to all the rest: HELLO.

so to everyone reading this too, HAPPY DOGGY DOG YEAR. (let's all start lovin' snoop.)

okay soooo collecting angpaos this year was pretty much the same. excpt ah kim (?) and and the wife (or izzit the husband?? oh dear...) have passed on. so mervin was there, cheerful as always. ahhh okay okay then then...nothing alr lah.

i'm saving up to buy an ipod. really, cos my creative's buttons are NOT WORKING! ARGH! i cannot pause a song, or skip to the next track. i have to go to the menu and CHOOSE THE NEXT SONG AIYOOO I TELL YOU AH.

oh and please don't let this make you not want to buy a creative, cos i think it's the way i handle things that are too rough and well, yeah. you can imagine. it's just in my nature to be...rough.

but i can be gentle.

but i usually am rough.

and now i'm repeating myself.

so yes. OFF TO CHOOSE A BLOGSKIN...

SORRY DEBBIE!

2006-01-31T02:02:00.000-08:00

2006-01-29T03:24:00.000-08:00

ONE MORE MOMENT.
RONIN.

NEW BLOGSKIN
NICE?

going out now so i cant post. CYAAAAA!

*HAPPY YEAR OF THE DOG, START LOVIN SNOOP YEAH!*

AIEEEEEEEE!

2006-01-29T01:50:00.000-08:00

HELLO HELLO, YES YES. okay so for those who STILL don't know, it's chinese new year today, right here, right now! and cny is, as izza very rightly put it in her message, a LOT OF ka ching! muahaha yes so i have been collecting my fortune.

okay, mini-fortune.

at least the recession is over, and i don't need to get married yet soooo MONEYYY! okay, i know, i'm money-grubbing, probably, and v ery very happy when i have a fat wallet. who isn't? it's not like i'm some mean person who wouldn't share money! ME?! so yeah, you HAVE TO understand why i loveeee cny. most of the time.

gonna change my blogskin now, gimme a minute...

great romances of the 20th century

2006-01-25T04:49:00.000-08:00

hey people. wassup! okay. so i'm talking to anton about after-Os life.

it's pretty scary, knowing that my 'safe' time at KC is gonna be up soon. it passed too fast, i swear..

anyway. so sang and me are/were supposed to do this history essay. pair work lah. damn funny, cos she said smth smth NUT DEN smth smth

and even she didnt know what she was talking about. HAHAHAHAHA...

okay sooo...

bye. ahah.

teachers read blogs?

2006-01-24T06:20:00.000-08:00

hello. and an especially big hello to all teachers who may just be wandering around in cyberzone to read their innocent student's blogs. (no sarcasm, a real hello) (not trying to be smart here either. it just occured to me cos of a teacher reading my friend's blog soo yeah. ahha.)

have you ever loved someone so much
you'd give an arm for
not the expression
no, literally give an arm for
when they know they're your heart
and you know you were their armour
and you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
but what happens when karma turns right around to bite you
and everything you stand for turns on you despite you
what happens when you become the main source of her pain
'daddy look what i made'
dad's got to go catch a plane
'daddy where's mommy?
i can't find mommy, where is she?'
"i don't know, go play, hailey baby, your daddy's busy
daddy's writing a song, the song ain';t gonna write itself"
I'll give you one underdog, and you got to swing by yourself"
then turn right around in that song
and tell her you love her
and put hands on her mother who's a splitting image of her
that's slim shady
yeah baby, slim shady's crazy
shady made me
but tonight, shady's rock-a-bye-baby, huh...

and when i'm gone, just carry on
don't mourn, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice
just know that, i'm looking down on your smiling
and i didn't feel a thang
so baby don't feel no pain
just smile back
and when i'm gone, just carry on
don't mourn, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice
just know that, i'm looking down on you smiling
and i didn't feel a thang
so baby don't feel no pain

i keep having this dream
i'm pushing hailey on the swings
she keeps screaming she don't want me to sing
'youre making mommy cry
why, why is mommy crying?'
'baby daddy ain't leaving no more'
'daddy youre lying
you always say that, you always day this is the last time
but you ain't leaving no more, daddy youre mine'
she's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
'daddy please, daddy don't leave, daddy no stop it'
goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
it's got her picture
'thisll keep you sade, daddy take it with you'
i look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
these fucking walls must be talking cos man i can hear 'em
theyre saying you got one more chance to do right and its tonight
now go out there and show em that you love em 'fore it's too late
and just as i go to walk out of my bedroom door
it turns to a stage
they're gone, and the spotlight is on
and i'm singing
just smile back..

sixty thousand people
all jumpin out their seat
the curtain closes they throwin roses at my feet
i take a bow and thank y'all for coming out
theyre screaming so loud
i take one last look at the crowd
i glanced down
i don';t believe what im seeing
'daddy it's me, help mommy, her wrists are bleeding'
'but baby, we're in sweden, how did you get to sweden?'
'i followed you daddy, you told me that you werent leaving
you lied to me dad, and now you made mommy sad
and i bougyht you this coin, it says NUMBER ONE DAD
that's all i wanted, i just want to give you this coin
i get the point, fine, me and mommy are going'
'but baby wait'
'its too late, dad, you made your choice
now go out there and show em that you love em more than us
that's what they want, they want you marshall they keep
sceraming your name, its no wonder you cant go to sleep
just take another pill, yeah i bet you will
you rap about it
yeah, word, k-k-keep it real'
i hear applause, all this time i couldnt see
how could it be, that the curtain is closing on me?
i turn around, find a gun on the ground
cock it, put it to my brain
scream 'DIE SHADY' and pop it
the sky darkens, my life flashes
the place that i was supposed to be one crashes
and burns into ashes
that's when i wake up
alarm clocks ringing
there's birds singing
it's spring and hailey's outside swinging
i walk right up to kim and kiss her
tell her i miss her
hailey just smiles and winks at her little sister
almost as if to...say...

anyway, that was 'when i'm gone' by eminem.
in kinda a rush, so sorry if i typed it out wrongly or smth.
really really tired now so gonna sleep. really really tired. dunno how to survive in class tml =/
but i think i should be fine. IF I SLEEP NOW. okay. so bye!

and all these startling revelations
i never knew
would i have ever?
would you have let me go on
living this lie, this fathomless mystery
it kept me sane for so long
but now i wished i was insane a long time ago
maybe it would have numbed the pain
the pain, the searing pain reaching from head to toe
it stems from the heart
but i can't live without my heart so i can't get rid of the pain
i need closure but i can only find new openings
oh well, i'm strong
i'll pull through
with some laughter along the way
it's okay, don't mind me, i'm a fighter i am
i won't give up unless i must
and who lays down the rules in my life?
why me.
it seems to easy doesn't it
but i assure you it's true
life will be so much easier if everyone believed in themselves a little more
yet was not dependant on their free spirit only
they trust the people around them
and it's not a guarded feeling one would get
it's a feeling of openness, happiness
that you can experience something so heavenly must mean that it comes from love

emotional pain and hurt and grief and sorrow
physical abuse and blood and gore and death
these things come and go
as long as you don't give up,
you'll see a brighter day
so trust in others, believe in yourself
and love the lord with all your heart, soul and mind.

on a lighter note, imagine this. everyday someone will give you $86,400 to spend. if you do not spend it, you will lose it. you cannot invest your money or put it in a bank or anywhere for safekeeping.
the logical thing to do would be to spend as much as you can, maybe donate to a charity or whatever else.

god has given us 86,400seconds every single day to spend.
procrastination wastes these precious seconds.
once lost, they cannot be recovered.
the logical thing to do would be to spend as much as you can, maybe donate some time for a charitable cause?

=)

FEELING GOOD AND HOLY TONIGHT.
GOD LOVES YOU, EVERY ONE!=)

THEROCKANDROLLQUEENWASHERE

people have one thing in common: they are all different.

2006-01-23T05:12:00.000-08:00

hey people =) wassup. okay so i'm not THAT happy ever since i got home lah but it doesnt hurt to try to cheer myself up a little right? cos if i don't do it and there isn't anyone else then i'll just be sad and sadder so YEAH.

so today, i'm BLUE. geddit. ha ha ha? okay nvm.

erm. erm.

yeah. liddat la.

the streets were high
and the gates were locked
so i jumped in and i let you in
and we stood at the door
with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it

and i knew that you meant it
that you meant it, that you meant it

ah well. maybe i'm a little bit cheered up now.

oh oh oh. this morning was the match. manu-liverpool. manu won! at the 90th minute or smth. yay =)

so that's smth, at least.

where is the moment we needed the most
you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
tell me your blue skies fade to grey
tell me your passions's gone away
and i don't need no carrying on
you stand in the line just to hit a new low
youre faking a smile with the cofee you go
you tell me your life's been way off line
you fall into pieces everytime
and i don't need no carrying on

okay so i dunno if certain people are still reading my blog posts and whatever, but your ignoring of my FRIENDS is extremely obvious and it relaly pisses me off. why be so immature over something so small? i never said we weren't friends. i never said we were having a fight. i'm currently just really pissed off cos you never seem to learn your lesson, no matter what i say or do. so really, stop with this act of ignorance, it doesn't suit children.

sorry that i'm so mean but it's true. the way you people act it's as if we're all back in kindergarten...

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gotta iron my uniform now. cya people.

ROCKANDROLLQUEEN WAS HERE.

a life without love is no life at all.

2006-01-22T06:09:00.000-08:00

hey people. there's a match later. don't tell me parents! lol. joking. but anyway. it's at midnight. retarded cos i have SCHOOL tml, these brits just don't understand my predicament! :'(

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shit man, now-a-nights i'm always hunched over this stupid keyboard. i bet it does wonders for my eyesight. and i'm so so so WHITE. no i'm not angmoh. I'M SO SO SO YELLOW, WHICH MAKES IT WORSE. but then when some sporeans get too tan then the chinese look malay. which is really really confusing.

and that was not meant to be a racist. some people like the tan look. i just don't like the weird skin colour look. really sorry if it offends anyone. please don't sue me or put me in jail. i beg you. or a girls' home or smth. PLEASE...I AM NOT A RACIST...

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what do they call M&Ms when they graduate?

SMARTIES.

zg's joke. oh well. nth to blog about what. ahhahahaahahaha. THERE'S SCH TML AND EVERYONE HASNT DONE HW.

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A LIFE WITHOUT LOVE IS NO LIFE ATALL. true or untrue? true!

i mean not only boyfriend/girlfriend love and whatever but family love/bonds/TIES THAT BIND! and friends loving friends.

eh credit for the sentence goes to...*drum roll which DIES HALFWAY MUAHAHAH* anton! woohoo!

inspired by: always the friend. never the girlfriend.

ah well. I KNOW MY LIFE IS KINDA SAD! haha. okay. rubbish. maybe not rubbish.

gtg iron my uniform now cos the house is maidless. so yeah. BYE!

THUNDERSTORMS - the romantic waters.

2006-01-22T01:21:00.000-08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyy. wassup. haha. i've been doing my homeworkthis WHOLE AFTN, so be proud of me! yes!

except i still have english (1 and a 1/2 more articles to write about and summary :S) and math which i don't have and HISTORY WHICH THAT SANGEERNA IS SUPPOSED TO CALL ME ABOUT BUT SHE HASNT REACHED HER STUPID FRIEND'S HOUSE OR SMTH SO I CAN'T DO IT COS I'LLGET THE QUESTIONS WRONG. :(

okay. lol. so anyway. does anyone have The Strokes album?

PUPPY-DOG EYES

*ahem ahem* guitarist. right.

GUTARIST! RIGHT!!!!! [electrico]

the kiss. (no, that isn't spidey. that's seth and summer. DUH)

seth cohen aka adam brody aka the hot geek in oc and THE FUNNIEST with his terribly funny lines. =) good stuff...

summer roberts aka rachel bilson aka the shortest oc chick but the best. woohoo!

AND YES, IT IS TRUE, SETH AND SUMMER DO GO OUT IN THE SHOW AND ADAM AND RACHEL DO GO OUT IN REAL LIFE. isn't that sweet? *pchaah* that was a million heart breaking. girls and boys. =p

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AIYAH AND PEOPLE AH. seriously you know. if you just wanna say smth about me right just SAY LA LIKE I GIVE A FREAKING DAMN! my hide is thicker than you think. it can take more emotional walloping than you think. (but don't come near it though. my ass i mean.)

so yeah. cos i'm really quite fed-up with idiots who think they know me trying to talk and talk to me but i just cannot find it in myself to talk and talk to them so they end up getting pissed off with me and SUDDENLY! IT'S ALL CLARE'S FAULT! okay? so i'm pissed off and i don't wanna know about whatever nonsense lah. i mean SERIOUSLY, don't be so self-centred anymore. i'm a person too. and sometimes people just don't wanna be extra extra good friends with other people. (okay you're asking why. because i just can't/don't trust you. never have, never will. i dunno what pretense you were living under, what falsehood i apparently bestowed on you but WAKE UP. IT WAS NEVER THERE.)

anyway. so stop thinking that if you insult me i will apologise or smth smth liddat. cos i won't cos i HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING WRONG. me pissing you off is basically your opinion. which, me being me, i dont give a damn! so insult me! throw throw THROW all the insults you want!

but that's just for me lah yeah. don't do anything to hurt my friends my family or yourself.

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eh. in case anyone is wondering, yes it is directly aimed at some people so if you dunno what the hell i'm talking about then...well, it's not you then. duh. so yeah. use your brains that god gave you once in awhile yeah.

SHAN WEE ROCKS! i love his voice on the radioooo. i was listening to uk top twenty just now. really nice voice. yep. different from the rest. there's a certain dj's voice which is TOO BLOODY CHIRPY I TELL YOU. so annoying. everything seems soooo annoying when he's on the radio. lol. okay. anywayyyyy moving on...

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churchy whurchy was funny wunny. oh well. ANTON OWES ME A CAKE. okay maybe not a WHOLE cake. but at least a teeny tiny weeny winy (?!) part of the one he made.

and a startling revelation! - marianne is going to be, indirectly, my godsister. because she's having her confirmation this year and her godparents are in shanghai soooo she chose between THE FINALISTS (oh haha) uncle ignatius and my mum and since she wanted a woman, VOILA! A NEW GODSISTER. ahha.

she gave me an idea thoughhhh...hmmmmmm...i shall start saving up for...erm. mike, char, marianne, anton, nick, andddd whoever else la. as in as a confirmation present! SEE HOW GENEROUS I AM...

and see if i have the money first. but should be la right i mean it's not like i'm poor or anything and i get only one buck a day. which i don't, incidentally. in case you were wondering.

so yeah. that's it i guess. GOING OUT FR DINNER NOW. cyaaaa =)

THEROCKANDROLL.QUEEN HAS GRACED THE PAGE. all bow down.

[i want you]
electrico

i just wanna see you with me
but you
you've got my shoes
it feels so wrong, it feels so right
to come home to you late at night
but baby
where are you now?

when you come home baby
i know somehow that your eyes
have gone
astray

and when you come back baby
you just look back and say
'i want you'

baby
i'm wanting to kiss you
it feels just like you know it quite went wrong
it still feels wrong, it feels so right
to come home to you late at night
but baby!
where are you now?

and when you come home baby
i know somehow that your eyes have gone astray
and when you come back lady
you just look back and say
'i want you'

when you come home baby
i know somehow that your eyes have gone astray
and when you come back later
you just lok back and say
'i want you'
sing it with me
i want you
sing it with me
i want you
i want you

[runaway]
-electrico-

truly julie in another day
you know it really isnt dfaraway
that im longing to be with you
you've been waiting for another sun
and thats when things begin to come undone
and theres nothing that i can do
there's a sense thats running in the air
and thats the time that you should never dare

running away you cant pretend
up to the door and back again with me
i know
running away it drives me wild
even someone that makes me mild like you
i know
i know

and theres a place where everything is free
and everyone is just like you and me
like i've never seen berfore
but i would never ever wanna go
to a place unles you tell me so
then you said that you wanted more
theres a sense thats running in the air
and that s atime when you should never dare

running away you cant pretend
up to the door ad back again with me
i know
running away it drives me wild
even somone that makes me mild like you
i know
i know

running away you cant pretend
up to the door ad back again with me
i know
running away it drives me wild
even somone that makes me mild like you
i know
i know
i know

the come-back post.

2006-01-20T20:03:00.000-08:00

HEY. WASSUPPPPP.

okay so i guess i should post a long one this time to make up for past no-posts. yes, that sentence DID make sense.

anyway, camp was on monday. all the way till wednesday. it was pretty okay i guess. i was in group 7. we even have a trademark sign. like whoa. hahaha. okok. soo...the outstanding people in the group? AMY, ETHY, kimberly, denisia, valerie, amelia. THESE PEOPLE DID EVERYTHING I SWEAR. haha yes yes.

ethel went a bit mad doing the hokey pokey too.

HEYYYY HOKEY-POKEY!

campfire's burning now (CAMPFIRE'S BURNING NOW!)
campfire's burning now (CAMPFIRE'S BURNING NOW!)
burn, burn, burn (?!)
BURNING BURNING BURNING
burn, burn, burn
BURNING BURNING BURNING
campfire's burning in the dark dark night, you go
OOH YEAH, YIPEEYIPEEYEAH
campfire's burning in the dark dark night, you go
OOH YEAH, YIPEEYIPEEYEAH
campfire's burning now
CAMPFIRE'S BURNING NOW!

okay but seriously, i know i sound high and all but i'm sick. hahaha..

thurs i wasnt that bad, just my voice only. BUT FRIDAY, my god, friday. i left sch just after recess cos i felt like shitttt. OH WELL. so that meant i missed bio, math, LIT. i think. yeah. BIO AND LIT AGAIN! i haven't attended a single bio/lit class this whole week. =/ i think i'm quite far behind for bio. lit i think i can handle it. i don't use much brain cells during lit classes anyway.

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crystal chew hars. MY DEAR GIRL. I AM NOT not NOT DEPRESSED. JUST RMB THAT IF YOU'RE GONNA READ THE NEXT PART YAH. I DON'T WANT YOU TO PANIC/WORRY/FREAK OUTokay.

that goes for the rest of you.

okayyyy...so i'm not sad/angry/depressed but i am pissed off! it's like my whole time here is spent waiting for smth. and i never get it! even for stupid stuff. like a new handphone or smth. never okay. by the time i can change my phone, the phone i want isn't even on the market alr. it's always the same thing =(

and people, about my blog title right.
> in a fucked up situation, i let love down the drain < style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">okay does anyone get this thing where they get addicted to songs that are sung by a member of the opposite sex. and it always happens. cos' it does for me =/ so when i sing the songs (the LOVE songs) i sound like a lesbian. butch, whatever.

example: Eleanor - Low Millions

lyrics from chorus:
AND I WON'T CALL YOU BABY, ANYMORE
WON;'T CALL YOU BABY ANYMORE
WON'T CALL YOU BABY, ELEANOR

so you see. it sucks. very weird.

ANYWAY. just got back from math tuition. the new teacher i now have is miss ng. she's pretty nice =)

there was this really obnoxious guy there though. he acted like he was the only one trying to to math and when miss ng was teaching him, he can THROW BACK HIS HEAD AND LAUGHHHH OKAY. slap his face. haha.

but i had an embarassing moment =/

when my time was up and i was walking out right, i wanted to drop my used tissues into the dustbin which is just next to the open door. so i bent down but my stupid fingers/brain got confused and i dropped my bloody water bottle instead. and since my positioning was such that the TISSUE would drop in not the freaking BOTTLE, it WHACKEDDD the side of the dustbin and it was damn loud and everyone turned round to lookat me andi was so embarassed and i went 'SHIT SORRY' but i didn't turn around to look at anybody.

then that stupid obnoxious boy went to say smth like 'wah, angry already' SO I TURNED AROUND AND HE WAS LOOKING AT ME AND SO WAS MISS NG AND I JUST TRIED TO SMILE AND SAY SORRY THEN as i was walking out i heard miss ng say bye.

so yeah.

anyway. speaking of class, i have one later. cat class. the second last time i will have a first day of catechism. like for forever. this year is like the last full year of cat class that i will have. oh well. AFTER NEXT YEAR MY SATURDAY AFTNS WILL BE FREEEEEEE! whoohoo. hahaha.
hoorays.

so yeah. life is pretty stressful now, and i think i speak for at least a quarter of the sec3s. the homework seriously just PILES AND PILES UP and everything becomes a blur after awhile.

gotta go now. well, actually i DON'T but then i just don't feel like writing anymore. so yeah!

there is freedom within
there is freedom withal
trying to catch the deluge in a paper cup
there's a battle ahead
many battles are lost
but you'd never reach the end of the road when you're travelling with me

hey now hey now
don't dream it's over

pissed off.

2006-01-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

hey people.

watched a match at 8.40 - man u and man city.

man u lost, 3-1.

and i'm pissed off with nicholas now. fpissed off okay. frude lah you.

so yeah. ciao for now.

2006-01-11T03:43:00.000-08:00

these hearts they race from self-control

your legs are smooth as they graze mine

we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

so won't you kill me

so i'd die happy

my heart is yours to fill or burst

to break or bury

or wear as jewellery

whichever you prefer.

the words are hushed

'lets not get busted

let's stay entwined here

undiscovered'

safe in here from all the stupid questions

'hey did you get some?'

man, that is so dumb

stay quiet, stay here

stay crystal and clear

so we can get some

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

so won't you kill me

so i'd die happy

2006-01-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

someone just called me on my hp? and i dunno who the fuck it is? and i'm ALR FUCKING PISSED OFF AND THE FUCKING IDIOT JUST GOES 'WEI WEI WEI' LIKE SOME RETARD OKAY. he's lucky i don't actually bother to verbalise the expletives going through my head right then and there, how much i wanted to set his clothes on fire (cos obviously killing him would be -sigh- too un-catholic-like). i DUNNO WHETHER IT'S A WRONG NUMBER (which i can forgive. see? gone. BUT IF.) OR IF IT IS A FUCKING PRANK CALL. btw, if it's the latter, go fuck yourself! NOT TODAY LAH OKAY. MAYBE YST. MAYBE TML. MAYBE SOME OTHER SANE DAY, EVEN MY BDAY AND I WOULD HAVE LAUGHED LAH. BUT TODAY? TODAY WHEN I AM ALREADY SO DOWN THAT I'M SCARING EVEN MYSELF? TODAY WHEN I FEEL LIKE LISTENING TO DEPRESSING SONGS ALL DAY? TODAY WHEN I NEED MY FRIENDS BUT I CAN'T TALK TO THEM IN CASE I SAY SMTH EXTREMELY GUNDU-ISH OR SUICIDAL AND THEY PANIC LAH OKAY. I RATHER REST IN PEACE, THANKS.

SO WHOEVER THAT PRANK CALLING IDIOT IS, (because it seems weird to get a wrong number call and the person just keeps saying 'wei') YOU ARE SUCH A FUCKER AND I CANNOT STAND YOU.

"I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

-My Chemical Romance

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

selemat hari raya haji;

2006-01-09T20:00:00.000-08:00

hey people. today. is. not. a. good. day. no siree. i just woke up too. =/ i'm quite annoyed with...everything lah. i mean, yst was great, to all those who voted for yongling/teresa on campus superstar, thank you because she's in my choir and we're all really proud of her.

but today,. this morning, the sense-of-highness has worn off. so now, all i feel is irritation and fatigue. i need to be with my friends, but as usual it has to rain and my brother has to be sick and i just HAD TO wake up so late.

okay. so. aiyah. whatever. bye.

fine, i understand, okay with me

if that's the plan

you can take the stereo, the tv and the video

the bed the sheets and pillows

before you go

but for now, unlock the door

what are we doing all this for?

let me make you dinner

one last time

then you'll go your way and i'll go mine.

and i won't call you baby anymore

won't call you baby

won't call you baby, eleanor.

you left your smell

you left your taste

you left me here with my mistakes

and i can't explain for what you said i've done

but just for you

i'll bite my tongue.

and i won't call you baby anymore
won't call you baby
won't call you baby, eleanor.

eleanor, i miss you

eleanor, be well

eleanor, i wish you'd

release me from your spell

and i won't call you baby anymore

won't call you baby, i can't take the fall

won't call you baby, eleanor..

Clare - MUSIC

2006-01-08T03:08:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey. i just got back from LOM meetingS. first was at 8-FREAKING-THIRTY OKAY. but that was my own zi tuan/presidium's one. then after mass we went to eat at Kopitiam then it was Curia/qu tuan meeting. (so two alr okay. TWO ALR.) then was some evaluation thingy whingy then it was mark's recruitment thing. okay i guess it's actually LOMs one but then Mark initiated it lahhhh.

guess what group they put me in? Music! hence the title. so it's abriel, luke and yours truly in charge of music. but GUESS WHAT? none of us listen to chinese music! hahahahaha.

okay so anyway. we're gonna have jing xiu ying this year! =) angela is the ying zhang/camp chieftess. so so so so happyyyyy! haha. when we didnt have one last year, it was like i ...drifted away from LOM abit lah. i felt that way. oh oh oh someone remind me that i'm doing the ling-jing next qu tuan so i have to go. i think i'll forget =/ haha but nvmmmmm...

okaaaaaay so...after that last meeting, ian, christopher, gabriel and i went to erm. bras basah complex. yeah. to eat la. hungry. ahha. then then then i came home! ended up being half-drenched. ahhahaa.

okokok gonna go now. maybeeee i fi get depressed later i shall blog again.

OH YES. I HAD A DREAM LAST NIGHT. more next time =)

PERFECT SITUATION;

2006-01-07T04:27:00.000-08:00

singing oh, oh
oh, oh
oh...oh.

singing oh, oh
oh, oh
oh...oh...

WHAT'S THE DEAL WITH MY BRAIN
WHY AM I SO OBVIOUSLY INSANE?
IN A PERFECT SITUATION, I LET LOVE DOWN THE DRAIN
THERE'S THE PITCH
SLOW AND STRAIGHT
ALL I HAFTA DO IS SWING AND I'M A HERO
BUT I'M A ZERO

HUNGRY NIGHTS ONCE AGAIN
NOW ITS GETTING UNBELIEVABLE
COS I COULD NOT HAVE IT BETTER
BUT I JUST CAN GET NO PLAY
FROM THE GIRLS
ALL AROUND
AS THEY SEARCH THE NIGHT FOR SOMEONE TO HOLD ON TO
OR JUST PASS THRU

singing oh, oh
oh, oh
oh, ohh.

GET YOUR HANDS
OFF THE GIRL
CAN'T YOU SEE THAT SHE BELONGS TO ME?
AND I DON'T APPRECIATE THIS EXCESS COMPANY
THOUGH I CAN'T SATISFY ALL THE NEEDS SHE HAS
AND SO SHE STARTS TO WANDER
CAN YOU BLAME HER?

singing oh, oh
oh, oh
oh, o-oh

dropsofJupiter;

2006-01-05T05:39:00.000-08:00

hey hey HEY...wasssssssUP...

okay so. everyone. is. falling. sick! WTF LAHHHH...and choir is supposed to perform on saturday! may god help us...please!

thefamilystone;

2006-01-01T20:09:00.000-08:00

hey guys. wassup?

i watched the family stone yst with my family (exc my sis, duh) and it rocks. it was so, so...real. like, you could really feel for sarah jessica parker's character when she was humiliated time and time again. i spent half the show crying my eyes out.

and maybe it also goes to the fact that before the movie, in the car, my mum was scolding mike and me. one part really, really hit me hard: "you two never help around the house, blahblah" but just the day before, i was in the kitchen almost the whole day, SLOGGING MY ASS OUT. and then she says this. i mean, really, her memory isn't that bad. so yeah, i was gonna cry in the car alr...then the movie was so sad and all. it was like...niagra falls! i mean for someone like me la who hardly cried before 2005. then when the year started, the dam broke, and i was always crying. or so it seems.

2005 was a bad year for me. i mean, there were good parts too, but mostly i think...pretty bad. or maybe it's just the mood i'm in now.

so yeah. i think 2004 was better...and 1991 was the worst, probably. oh that was a joke. ha. ha. ha. laugh. laugh.

oh, in the movie right, there was an argument about gays...SJP's character asked diane keaton's character whether 'she relaly wished for gay children' because something like it's not normal or smth. and it's like, you can understand what she's trying to say but she's just saying it the wrong way. oh btw, there's a gay couple in the show, if you didn't know.

yesterday right, i was thinking about...my life in general. like what would i do this year to make it not so bad when we go into 2007. and you know what? i really don't know. i have no idea. well, maybe i do, but i can'tsay it here, obviously, because it's not smth you tell the whole world. and what if some teacher or parent reads this right, then i'm pretty much screwed.

who gives a damn, anyway. those snoopy people who aren't friends who read other people's blogs are just plain weird people with no life.

okay, my screen is blinking and blinking now so i'm gonna go. bye.

rockandroll.queen@hotmail.com

2005-12-31T23:16:00.000-08:00

hey people! i've changed my email address to rockandroll.queen@hotmail.com instead of the_unknown_clARe@hotmail.com ok? so if i'm on your msn list or whatever, just re-add me okay, thanks! =)

my com is full of shit, too.

anyway, i spent the first hour, THE FIRST HOUR, of 2006 watching the last part of the manu-bolton wanderers match. well, at least they won. ha. ha. ha.

well!, cheers to another year of studying, mugging, slacking, laughing, crying, SINGING, spying, bumblebeeing, librarying, bitching, loving, hating and being awesomely CRAZY like we (my friends. and me.) always are! =)

so i know it's a little late but i still wanna say thank you to individual people who;ve been there for me through the year for...various reasons!

charmaine - WOMAN! haha. serious now ah. okay, you have been my friend since dunnowhen and we are a little mad la sometimes, playing around in church and whatever, but you were there for me when i needed you, and that;s what counts. like that time the youth mass thing where my mum didnt allow me to go and all. rmb? okay well i do cos i rmb i was quite quite pissed off and i was crying and crying. =) and thanks for staying up wimme that time the football match! ahha...love ya loads, woman! SEEYOUINCHURCH HOR.

zg! - YO! haha. okok. you ah, a bit mad one loh, but your words, surprisingly, have some truth in them la. damn difficult to understand at first but THEN after that when i get used to it then...not so bad la. ahahhaha. im tlaking rubbish now! but anyway, you;ve been someone who i can really talk to most of the time. so...yeah. =)

tildaaaaaaaaaa! - *pokes cheeks* we've been thru quite a bit in choir alone, not to mention the long long talks while i was in the library and all that. you're not like a SENIOR to me, more like someone my age who i TAKE CARE OF. =p and pls pls pls hor, we will ALWAYS BE THE SIXERS. =)

crystal-the-idiot - you mad, mad girl i'm gonna miss you so much during class time this year!like SO NOT FAIR LA. =( -sigh- anyway, we've only been friends since sec sch and i think we're pretty close, yah? smth liddat la! ahah. maybe there's some idiotic similarities in both of us. hmm, i think so...anyway! DO WELL IN 3./6 AND HAVE FUN AND GO TO THE BEST JC THAT SUITS YOU OR WHATEV! =)

ethel, grace, ames - YOU THREE AH. ALL MAD ALSO! AHAH. sorry, but i cannot really be bothered to type three times cos i think it'll be mostly MOSTLY the same. cos im like so. lazy. but. nvm. you guys hafta work real hard in choir okay. we all started out from like NOTHING, but now we're SOMETHING. and yet sometimes it seems like you guys arent really helping, you're just at the sidelines cheering tilda or me or crystal on! so yeah, make your presence(s) more known okay? =) love you guys, SIXERS ALWAYS!

okay so...yeah. that's mostly it. and if i meant a lot to you this year and vice versa, i'm sorry i missed you out, because that obviously shows that you...well, you don't relaly mean much to me la!

p.s. mostly i only wrote for people who i thought would see this. so yeah. if you're like siew shuen, with the weird com situation, then i really didnt bother. =p

stickwitu

2005-12-31T02:23:00.000-08:00

hey hey. you guys all know the song Stickwitu by the Pussycat Dolls right? the hot babes, yes. haha. i think it's pretty nice. it's like so different from Doncha and all. i didnt even recognise them. i mean, it's good cos it's a nice song but now i dunno how to define them. are they the sexy b*tches or the soulful group or girls?

mad mad mad music. haha. okay, no offence if you took any, I TAKE IT BACK!

#4. areaB. macDonald's. bicycle shop. LONG WALK

2005-12-29T20:14:00.000-08:00

okayyyyyyy so here i am to tell you how the bbq went. okkkkkk...it was ok. haha. a lot of laughter, cycling, music, laughter, food, walking and ice cream.

i must add, very little sleep. terrible, really! but oh well. i wasn't really expecting like 10hrs of sleep or smth but i thought AT LEAST A LITTLE MORE THAN 2HRS. okay, and we didn't take any pictures, so TOO BAD, PICTURE FREAKOS.

sooooo...we were supposed to meet at 3 on the day, but everybody was there only at 4smth. tsk tsk. haha. but maybe it was my fault a liiiiitle bit...so then we got our bloody bikes which caused me ass pain, and made us walk and walk and walk...$7/day. ("if you all okay, i also okay"-.-)

then, a long time (or so it seems) later, we (FINALLY) reached the bbq pit. (note: first time reaching pit) then 3 of us (meaning me inc.) went to buy batteries for the radio.

we ended up at the lagoon (or whatever you call it!) to eat/drink. so eat eat, drink drink laugh laugh answer phone calls ETC...and so we left for 7-11 and macs to waste more of my xmas money. so we happily bought the food the charcoal and the firestarters and went back to the DAMN FAR AWAY PIT...suddenly i saw the radio.
"Eh, did you buy the batteries?"
it was returned with a sheepish look and some stupid words which my memory cannot store, so i had to go back to freaking 7-11 and get them. BAH! WTF?! $8 FOR BATTERIES? BAH!

then we ATEEEEEEEEEEE hooray. (note: how many times have i been back to the pit? THREE TIMES)

SUDDENLY, 8'O'CLOCK APPROACHES...we needa return the bloody bikes! die die die! smth like past 15mins you needa pay forthe full hour! okay so cycle cycle to the bicycle shop. my legs are alr feeling like jelly. haha. reach there, return the bikes and walk back. WALK, I TELL YOU. -sigh-

so after we WALKED back,

sleeping standing up;

2005-12-29T06:04:00.000-08:00

hey people. okayyyy...so...yst was like THE longest day ever (cos it sorta combines with today! yay! -.-) okay so...for the slow people who don't geddit, yst was my bbq at east coast.

ARGH MORE NEXT TIME.

maybe if i wish hard enough? =(

2005-12-26T05:27:00.000-08:00

funny how this world works. funny how the human brain works. no no, the human HEART. i mean, no one can even begin to fathom the mysteries of LOVE. (yeah, sorry, it's about LOVE again. ha. ha. ha. okay, i know, not funny. it was sarcastic. obviously.)

i mean like...okay, 5mins ago i was SOOO HAPPY and (okay, not SOOO happy but i wasn't SAD either!) after i see these few couples blogs and how SWEET IT IS and suddenly i see a *ahem ahem* a photograph *ahem ahem...ok nvm* and i'm sad. =( this is so depressing.

okay so i mean, you can't control how you fall in love and blahblahblah and couples in love still have problems and etcetcetc, but if the relationship is good then the happy memories obviously would stand out more than the fights right? and i want that kinda thing! i don't wanna be the friend.

always the friend, never the girlfriend.

and it's true, too. so annoying. i mean, yeah there's been guys who actually do (yea, surprised?!) like me but i didn't like them as much as i *ahem ahem* ah well. the connection's bad, cannot type lah. (still tryna be funny here...in vain) okay so i canNOT say who i like from now cos, obviously, it's a public blog and anybody can read it and the link is on my friendster so NOOOO WAYYYYY...

but still! i think it's pretty obvious. RIGHT, SIEW SHUEN, CRYSTAL, PRIS, VIC, MINAL...even jolin, cecilia...haha. see? my life is just so so weird! everybody knows except the guy himself! he must be retarded! and i still like him!

okay and NOTE TO ALL PEOPLE WHO'RE GONNA TEASE ME ABOUT THIS NEXT YEAR. STOP IT OKAY. IT'S NOT FUNNY, IT ONLY GETS ME DEPRESSED. SO STOP IT. (see as i'm writing this i'm gonna fucking cry alr. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH)

i'm losing my mind, people, friends, strangers, enemies, KNOW THAT CLARE IS LOSING HER FUCKING MIND. it's like since final year exams i've been crying and crying over the smallest things...like The OC season one the last episode? fucking cried! (sorry ah crystal, the negativity in this is astounding. whoa.) and just now we were watching freaking NARNIA for god's sake and when Aslan died, i was gonna cry right then and there. so bear with me, please?

changing the subject...i hate my dog. in fact, i think i hate all dogs. my left leg now has two humongous scratches because of that fucking dog. i thought i was gonna die or something. and no, it isn't funny. and yes, i did cry. actually, i'm also crying now. you don't know what it's like. i just stepped out of the door and he was there. the dog, i mean. and suddenly he starts jumping on me, over and over again. and i keep telling him to sit and 'NO' but he doesnt listen to me. he just keeps jumping. i try to run to the backyard but he jumps on me again. then when i try to push him away, he starts to bite my hand. as in, almost piercing the flesh. but it didn't, anyway. so there i am, alone outside with this fucking dog jumping on me and i'm close to tears and suddenly these new neighbours walk past and start fuckiong laughing at me. i almost screamed at them to get lost. obviously, i didn't. so i tried calling for my dad...and he came out and then the fucking dog stopped jumping around and crouched down. i wanted to just go sit down somewhere and cry and cry and cry...

and it didn't help that in Narnia, there were wolves. i saw the teeth and wanted to cry again.

it's quite...traumatic. i'm serious. i felt so helpless! for one of the only times in my life, i was alone and actually scared of a dog. but anyway. so my leg has scratches now. so it's difficult for me to wear a skirt now. but jeans would be worse right, because the material would be on my leg.

so yeah. i'm sorry if now tilda is worried about me, or someone is laughing at me.

up yours, if you are, btw.

okay...so...narnia was nice anyway. it was kinda nice. but i like lotr more. it's like more...dark. yeah. it's a darker story with more secrets and scarier creatures. so why the hell do i like it more? weird.

there's a match later. manU obviously.
i have no idea who they're against, but whatever.

cya guys. i'll cheer up later, don't worry. i bounce back really quick...

rock&rollqueen

2005-12-25T20:15:00.000-08:00

hey guys. girls. whatever.

(crystal, crystal, STAREEEEEE and be TRANSFIXED...)

lol.

ah well. blog later! =)

2005-12-25T02:03:00.000-08:00

the clock's running down
the team's losing ground
to the opposing defense
the young quarterback
waits for the snap
when suddenly it all starts to make sense
he's got all kinds of time
h's got all kinds of time
all kinds of time
he's got all kinds of time
all kinds of time
he takes a step back
he's under attack
but he knows that no one can touch him now
he seems so at ease
a strange inner peace
is all that he's feeling somehow
he's got all kinds of time
he's got all kinds of time
all kinds of time
he's got all kinds of time
all kinds of time
he thinks of his mother
he thinks of his bride-to-be
he thinks of his father
his two younger brothers
gathered around the wide-screen TV
he looks to the left
he looks to the right
and there in a golden ray of light
is his open man
just like he planned
the whole world is his tonight
he's got all kinds of time
he's got all kinds of time
all kinds of time
he's got all kinds of time
all kinds of time

everything'snotlost;

2005-12-25T00:59:00.000-08:00

when i counted up my demons,

saw there was one for everyday

i put the good ones on my shoulder

i drove the other ones away

so if you ever feel neglected

if you think that all is lost

i'll be counting up my demons,

hoping everything's not lost

when you thought that it was over,

you could feel it all around,

everybody's out to get you,

don't you let it drag you down

cos if you ever feel neglected

if you think that all is lost

i'll be counting up my demons

hoping everything's not lost

if you ever feel neglected

if you think that all is lost

i'll be counting up my deomns

hoping everything's not lost

singong out oh, oh, oh, yeah

oh, oh, yeah

everything's not lost

ohcome on, yeah

oh, oh, yeah

come on, yeah

everything's not lost

oh, oh yeah

oh, oh, yeah

and everything's not lost

come on, yeah

oh, oh, yeah

oh come on, yeah

come on, yeah

oh, oh yeah

come on, yeah

everything's not lost

sing out, yeah

oh, oh, yeah

come on, yeah

everything's not lost

come on, yeah

oh, oh, yeah

sing out yeah,

and everything's not lost.

Photobucket

2005-12-23T23:30:00.000-08:00

This is a test post from Photobucket.com

olliolliOI!;

2005-12-23T20:05:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey..HOW'S LIFE ON XMAS EVE THEN?

yst was damn fun. i'm quite happy i went. cos i made a little silver man, i laughed and laughed i talked about school, i whacked idiots, i didn't understand what chris was tryna say to me...the list goes on. mainly i was laughing.

oh, we played tombola. again. and i had to be sponsored =p cos i had no money and each game cost like one or two dollars. haha. so THANK YOU TO MY SPONSERS. i think first time was
nick's parents and second time was libby's parents.

thank you thank you. ahhaha.

oookay. so, in this new-found xmas spirit, CHRISTMAS IS SAVED. it's a chrismukkah miracle, as the OC-ers would say. ahah.

i love christmas. =) *awwwwww*

haha. okay, so im gonna change my blog song. for twelve days. MARK MY WORDS. twelve days of a nice xmas song. yes yes. just as long as i can upload it this century...

so here it is, merry christmas, everybody's having fun
look to the future now, it's only just begun!

2005-12-23T08:17:00.000-08:00

2005-12-23T07:59:00.000-08:00

my little silver man;

2005-12-23T07:35:00.000-08:00

HEY TO ALL. (= wassssssup! haha. i just got back from a xmas party. damn funny lah! ahhaha.

MUSIC OF THE NIGHT: i'm alright by sugarcult.

very fitting, i think. haha.

"I'm Alright"

-Sugarcult

Don't wanna be here.
Repeating a new year.
Don't wanna let you down.
'Cause i'm in a new town.
Surrounded by let downs.
I don't wanna let you down.

I'm alright.
I'm gonna make it.
Even if i gotta fake it
I'm alright
I'm gonna make it.
Even if i gotta break it.
I'm alright.

I'm in a new place.
And you're now in my face.
I don't wanna let you down.
And i need my distance.
'Cause i'm feeling selfish.
I don't wanna let you down.

I'm alright.
I'm gonna make it.
Even if i gotta fake it.
I'm alright
I'm gonna make it.
Even if i gotta break it.
I'm alright.

I'm just a memory of everything i'll ever need.
I'm gonna make it now.
Always...let you down.[x3]

I'm alright.
I'm gonna make it.
Even if i gotta fake it.
Im alright.
I'm gonna make it.
Even if i gotta break it.
I'm alright.

Don't wanna be here.
Repeating a new year.
I'm alright.
Don't wanna let you down.
I'm in a new town.
Surrounded by let downs.
Don't wanna let you down.

bou yastard;

2005-12-22T21:02:00.000-08:00

HELLO PEOPLE. YES I AM MUCH HAPPIER TODAY, THANK YOU. BUT STILL NOT KINDA NORMAL YET. NOT VIBRATING AT HIGHER FREQUENCIES YET ALTHOUGH IT'S XMAS. =) oh well. there's always tml!

allkindsoftime;

2005-12-22T02:28:00.000-08:00

oh fuck the world today.

maybe not today. the DAY part was really fun. but the night. FUCK THE NIGHT. sometimes i wonder why my family members are so 'CONCERNED' about me and allthat kinda shit. come let me tell you my sad, sad, xmas story. okay. my parents are in this church group, okay? since like MANY MANY years ago. they were even leaders once. they did stuff that brought the people together. and now, NOW after i've made friends (pretty good friends, too) with the people my age there and been going to all the xmas parties they've had...now, this year, we aren't invited...-sigh- its like we're nothing to them now. like we're useless, to just be thrown away...maybe it's just me lah but it's making me feel like shit. so anyway. then there's this group of us from the church choir who planned to watch Narnia together. so since one of us IS invited to the party, he's going so we can't watch it tml. and so i said 'why don't we find a date for ALL of us to go TOGETHER?' i mean, makes sense right? how can you just leave people out just like that? but nooo..my brother and mother decide to tell me how fucking stupid i am during dinner, of all things and that 'its not that you WANT you leave him out' and blahblahblah. i mean seriously, they're asking me to just go ahead and watch it without him if he's not free.

okay, so there's 5 of us who were gonna go. Girl1, Girl2, me, my brother, and Guy3. (i'll just say the numbers.) so 1 ismy good friend, 2 is her sister and 3 is our mutual friend. so it's 3 who can't make it tml. i say wait. my brother says just watch it, damnit. 1 & 2 don't mind waiting. brother says just go watch it with our family (not including 1,2 or 3) i say NO LAH WTH HOW CAN YOU JUST GO BACK ON YOUR WORD LIKE THAT right? so he says some shitfucking answer which gets me really pissed off. this is where my mother steps in. she takes a calender and asks me if we can all watch it on christmas eve, in the morning. first off, who the fuck watches movies in the fucking morning of fucking christmas eve? shit lah, no one. and second, IT'S CHRISTMAS FUCKING EVE. so she says the 26th. it's a public holiday. and it's the day after xmas day. wtf lah.

so. i say, because i'm having a bbq on the 28th, why not we watch the night show? like 9+pm? and she says 'NO. YOU CANNOT SQEEZE SO MANY ACTIVITIES IN ONE NIGHT, CLARE! HOW CAN YOU START BBQING AT ABOUT 5 AND END WITH ENOUGH TIME TO MAKE IT TO THE CINEMA? YOU NEED TO CHANGE AND blahblahblhalbhalbhalbhfuckyourideablahblahblah' I WAS STEEAMING. really. i mean okay, who the hell looks at your attire when you're going out at night to like tampines cinema or whatever? secondly, YES THERE IS ENOUGH TIME. THE SHOW IS AT 9+.

my brother does not help. in fact, he is against me. (he always is. who the fuck gives a fuck?) and IN FACT, NO ONE IN THE DAMN FAMILY IS EVER HELPING ME FIGHT MY BATTLES. no, im always alone. ALONE. FUCKING ALONE. EVERYDAY. EVERY WEEK. EVERY MONTH. EVERY YEAR. EVERY NEW YEAR'S I'M FUCKING ALONE I TELL YOU. and they say that how you spend new years is how you're gonna spend the rest of the year. great. fucking great.

and that is why christmas this year will suck.

cos it's fucked up.

ohgoddammit;

2005-12-21T05:19:00.000-08:00

OH GODDAMMIT, I THINK I'VE LOST YOU
OH GOD, GODDAMMIT, I THINK I'VE LOST YOU

hey people. how's life. life is, now, very boring. no, not boring, because only the boring are bored. it is very, very, very, very dull. yes, dull. okay. so, to brighten up this dull blog of mine, i will currently look for pictures, nice ones mind you, to post. yes, here.

damn, i'm becoming as dull as this post.

yah yah. nice? ahha. i miss choir practices after school.

he's mine, mine, mineeee! i wish. haha.

THE OC, season one.

mygrownupchristmaslist;

2005-12-21T02:24:00.000-08:00

"Grown Up Christmas List"

-Kelly Clarkson

do you remember me, i sat upon your knee,

i wrote to you with childhood fantasies

well, i'm all grown up now

i still need help somehow

im not a child, but my heart still can dream

so here's my lifelong wish, my grown up christmas list

not for myelf but for a world in need

no more lives torn apart

that wars would never start

and time would heal all hearts

and everyone would have a friend

and right would always win

and love would never end

this is my grown up christmas list.

as children we believe

the grandest sight to see

was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree

but heaven only knows

that packages and all

can never heal a heartached human soul

no more lives torn apart

that wars would never start

and time would heal all hearts

and everyone would have a friend

and right would always win

and love would never end

this is my grown up christmas list

what is this illusion called the innocence of youth?

maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

no more lives torn apart

that wars would never start

and time would heal all hearts

everyone would have a friend

that right would always win

that love would never end

this is my grown up christmas wlist

this is my only lifelong wish

this is my grown up christmas list.

priest, naan, soccer and lots to drink.

2005-12-20T21:54:00.000-08:00

hey people! okay so...my parents invited some of their friends over as a celebratory dinner thing cos they just successfully signed many many people up due to their brilliant planning, etc. so it was the EEs, the KANGs, the SNGs and the TEOs. yeah. and since the ees, kangs and sngs have children around-my-age-or-younger, they were coming too. (i mean like, who would pass up an offer of free food and drinks and whoknowswhatelse?) so it was *counts 1 2 3..* 6 of us. the night was pretty hilarious at most points.

one weird thing about adults is that their jokes never really make sense. as in, they aren't FUNNY. but the adults all seem to get it. Weird Adult Humour. haha.

OKAY. SO. PEOPLE. HOW'S THE NEW LAYOUT? i got sick of clicking the words and the whole thing was too black. no colour, no life, SO BORING. so yeah. that's my logic. anyway i really like the GUESS picture. (courtesy of paragon and uncle ignatius, thankyouallsomuch. hah.)

okay, so how's life? for the rest of you. my tagboard is so silent now. terrible, terrible. haha.

okay. talk talk later later. CYAAAAA...

[ManU VS Birmingham]
3 -1!

THE REDS WON AGAIN.

parafreakinggon says:

2005-12-18T21:19:00.001-08:00

RONALDOOOOOOOO. tsk. but he's a good player. haha.

okay anyway. so yst we had our performances at the old folks' home and paragon, and these are some of the better pics. cheerio! (=

[life is for living, we all know. and i don't wanna live it alone]

parafreakinggon says:

2005-12-18T21:19:00.000-08:00

always the friend. never the girlfriend.

2005-12-18T05:05:00.000-08:00

lol. HOW'S LIFE, PEOPLE?

SORRY, I'M DRUNK ON ORANGE SQUASH. so are mike and chris and chris. ahha. we just got back from cricket club. before hat we were singing at paragon. and before that, we were singing at an old folks' home, called Villa Francis. it's really sad there...even the colours they painted the building with. it's like...aiyah, it's just damn depressing lah. so anyway. after that we went to paragon to sing. SO COOL. at first we didn't recognise anyone. then auntie linda and nick came. WALAO, THEN EVERYBODY STARTED COMING LAH. even crystal and siew shuen. and that was when we were singing.

AND THEY AH THEY AH KEPT MAKING ME LAUGH LOH. ESP THAT SIEW SHUEN. SO SO IRRITATING, TSK. EVEN THAT THAT NICHOLAS. AIYOOOO...everyone so mean ah! tsk tsk. haha. retarded.

okay, anyway, i think we people sang pretty good. haha. (= it was fun anyway. real fun. haha..

OKAY, ANYONE WHO LIKES KIDS AND/OR ORGANISING STUFF AND WOULD LIKE TO JOIN A CHURCH GROUP (BUT NOT THE SUPER SPIRITUAL KIND), PLEASE CONTACT ME...
the_unknown_clARe@hotmail.com OR CALL: 97974517. THANKS. (=

i'll be seeing you (=

2005-12-17T21:51:00.000-08:00

i'll be seeing you in all the old familiar places

that this heart of mine embraces all day through

in that small cafe

the hall across the way

the children's carousel

that chestnut tree

i'll be seeing you in every lovely summer's day

in everything that's light and gay

i'll always think of you that way

i'll find you in the morning sun and when the night is new

i'll be looking at the moon, but i'll be seeing you

i'll be seeing you in every lovely summer's day

in everything that's light and gay

i'll always think of you that way

i'll find you in the morning sun

and when the night is new,

i'll be looking at the moon,

but i'll be seeing you.

would you know my name, if i saw you in heaven?

would it be the same, if i saw you in heaven?

i must be strong and carry on

cos i know i don't belong here in heaven

would you hold my hand, if i saw you in heaven?

would you help me stand, if i saw you in heaven?

i'll find my way through night and day

cos i know i just can't stay here in heaven

time can bring you down

time can bend your knees

time can break your heart

have you on your knees, begging please

beyond the door, there's peace i'm sure

and i'm sure that we don't know tears in heaven

would you know my name if i saw you in heaven?

would it be the same if i saw you in heaven?

i must be strong and carry on

cos i know i don't belong here in heaven

cos i know i don't belong here in heaven...

beautifuldisaster;

2005-12-15T08:19:00.000-08:00

"Beautiful Disaster"

-Kelly Clarkson

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Hold me tight

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Lord he's beautiful
He's beautiful

maybe this xmas

2005-12-15T05:24:00.000-08:00

HEY HEY HEEYYYYYYYYYYY!

SET LER, MY BBQ (sorry peole not invited, it's like for only a few church people who all know each other. not for the sixers. next time! SET LER, THAT ONE) so yeah.

i've been a teeny weeny bit hyper today, and everybody is asking me if im in love. HAHA. =) i don;t think so people. not yet. at least, i don't think so. well anyway.

i keep singing the franz ferdinand song! WELL DO YA, DO YA DO YA WANNA WANNA GO?

OH WHEN I WOKE UP TODAY I SAID I-I-I'M GONNA MAKE SOMEBODY LOVE ME.

i'll be seeing you
in all the old, familiar places
that this heart of mine embraces
all day through

=)

THE NOTEBOOK IS SOOO SOOOO SWEET AND ROMANTICCCCCCC. =)

"Maybe I'm Amazed"

-Jem

maybe i'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
maybe im a afraid of the way i love you
maybe im amazed at the way you pulled me out that time and hung me on a line
maybe im amazed at the way i really need you

maybe im a girl
maybe im a lonely girl who's in the middle of something
that she doesnt really understand
maybe im a girl

maybe im a girl
maybe im a lonely girl who's int he middle of something that she doesn't really understand
maybe im a girl
maybe youre the only man who could ever help me
baby won't you help me understand

maybe im amazed at the way youre with me all the time
maybe im afraid of the way i lover you
maybe im amazed of the way you help me sing my song, right me when im wrong
maybe im amazed at the way i really need you

maybe youre the only man who could ever help me
baby, won't you help me understand

you COMPLETE me

2005-12-13T03:47:00.000-08:00

well do ya? do ya, do ya wanna, wanna go? =)

lucky, lucky, you're so lucky.
oh when i woke up tonight i said i-i-i said i gotta make somebody love me.
-FRANZ FERDINAND.

=)

oh well. life-in-dec-hols are boring.

WHO WATCHED JERRY McGUIRE? okay. you know the song Secret Garden? IT'S SOO...-sigh- romantic. haha. yeah. it;s the 'GIVE ME THE MONEY' show. the 'you complete me' show.

damn sweet lah. okay. and i just watched Treasure Planet (YES, THE CARTOON) on my com. shh don't tell my mum or dad. they'd kill me. eyesight problems. yes, but anyway. the song, the song, the song! AIYO SO NICE. it's jim's theme. his like...HIS SONG LAH. yeah. it's I'm Still Here by John Rzeznik. and it's damn nice.

I'm Still Here

-John Rzeznik

I am a question to the world

Not an answer to be heard

Or a moment that's held in your arms

And what do you think you'd ever say

I won't listen anyway

You don't know me

And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what do you think you'd understand

I'm a boy - no, I'm a man

You can't take me and throw me away

And how can you learn what's never shown

Yeah you stand here on your own

They don't know me

Cos' I'm not here

And I want a moment to be real

Wanna touch things I don't feel

Wanna hold on and feel I belong

And how can the world want me to change

They're the ones that stay the same

They don't know me

Cos' I'm not here

And you see the things they never see

All you wanted I could be

Now you know me and I'm not afraid

And I want to tell you who I am

Can you help me be a man

They can't break me

As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real

Wanna touch things I don't feel

Wanna hold on and feel I belong

How can the world want me to change

They're the ones that stay the same

They can't see me

But I'm still here

They can't tell me who to be

Cos' I'm not what they see

Yeah the world is still sleepin’

While I keep on dreamin’ for me

And their words are just whispers and lies

That I'll never believe

And I want a moment to be real

Wanna touch things I don't feel

Wanna hold on and feel I belong

And how can they say I’ll never change

They're the ones that stay the same

I'm the one now

Cos I'm still here

I'm the one

Cos' I'm still here

I'm still here

secret garden

2005-12-10T21:21:00.000-08:00

2005-12-09T03:50:00.000-08:00

hey, to all:

merry xmas in advance.

and a happy new year.

there's a song by the Jackson 5, "Give Love On Christmas Day"

mike's back! yipps! haha. good to find another teen around the house! THANK GOD. I THOUGHT I WAS SURROUNDED. haha.

okay, it's late/early, BYEEEE!

=)
C

2005-12-08T05:41:00.000-08:00

These habits can serve you so well in your lifetime. These habits can cause people to think well of you; these habits can keep you out of trouble; these habits can get you jobs you would not otherwise get - and these habits will make a huge difference in your lovelife, too.

1. You absolutely must smile.
2. You must stand straight.
3. You must relax.
4. You must make eye contact with people,
5. and you must use their names often.

i got this off a website. damn cool, i think. haha. okay, i know, whatever right? I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING, CRYSTAL, TILDA, AMY, ETC. =)